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today kan pua sian lor....
nearly late for econs but then heng ar... all my econs hmwk all wrong.. y? cos i dun the wrong way.. haiz....
during break, eat veggie rice... then go lib awhile then go back fc6 to find cihang... then go back to class... on the way back, saw pacc teacher... she gave mi chocolate.. so good sia...
during pacc, dun understand wat she says at all.. and all my ans all wrong.. haiz.... listening to mp3 all the time....
during the two hrs break, dunnoe wat to do.. went to lib and slack awhile then go disturb ppl.. force cihang to pei mi go fc6.... and after awhile she did.. i think she hate mi cos i hai her cannot study...
at fc6, eat again.. then michelle and kelly join us.. tok abt rock climbling and keep physco-ing mi to join.. see first ba... then went to lecture hall 4 lecture... sit with yao yao and valerie cos sweeying pon..
after lec, went to fc5 pei shikai toi wait for his swimming... then after that go home...
tmr fom liao but still ... other ppl alr study finish le.. haiz... life is sian... very sian... shall stop here le... bb
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
WHAT TRUE LOVE IS: - Peaceful, Gentle & Kind! - Humble - Unselfish - Enduring - Encouraging! - Patient WHAT TRUE LOVE IS NOT: - SEX! - What You See! - Rescuing! - Selfish! - Monetary! - Low Self Worth! -Verbally or Physically Abusive!
finally i finish my project... no more sex le.. wahaha.. did not realli do... jus anyhow type a few shit and pass to swee ying... she edit all until very nice... this type of grp mate are hard to find...
F.O.M lecturer is good... give us hint in an indirect way... hope that i can pass but then i noe i wun... all for studies....
now abt sch... now gg to sch is very sian... like something is amiss? wat is it? god noes.... i think i noes but i dunnoe whether i realli noe anot... haiz.. wat can i say.. u change but then u sure say u no change... the way u treat mi now is totally diff... think even if u read this u also wun noe that it's u.... okok... that's all for sch...
hate my aunt... so kan pua niao... wat the fark!!! strike lottery more than my dad and still wan my dad to split the cos of the dinner into 2 parts... but u see.. altogether got 4 table... we onli occupied 3 quarter while the rest are being book by them.. and they expect my father to pay for 2 table which is like 600.... wat the fuck... hope that my dad wun be that stupid to pay ba....
time and tides wait no man... no time le... no time le... haiz.... it's hard to be a human.... a dog or fish is better than man... i envy my hse de dog and fish....
nth more to say... jus like to crap...bb
i am sad
6:30 PMi am sad, i m sad, i m sad.... ur attitude towards mi seems to have change... why? jus tell mi? haiz...
can this world be without love? love may be a good thing but also a bad thing... haiz...
saw lao shu ai da mi de mv.. very touching sia... the guy turn into a mice jus becos he wan to make the girl survive... but then too fake.... FAKE, FAKE, FAKE...
FAKE, remind mi of a girl which yaoyao told mi...
FAKE and real!!! wat the things in this world that are real and wat are fake? alot of things run tru my mind? can the world dun revolve? can the time stop? can human dun change? can everything be free? haiz... why m i thinking so much... jus becos i m doing my project then have to link to all this? haiz...
shall stop here..
*once it's broken, it will still leave a crack there even if u put it back..
wat is true love and wat is not?
6:16 PM
True love rests the heart from turmoil, finds the heart relaxed and happy and provides warmth and peace to the soul.
True love is humbled love. Humble people make the best mates! Their own humility is the foundation for their ability to love.
- Honest & Truthful!
True love is wanting to be honest at all times! This is the only way true love survives. Honesty builds trust. Trust is the backbone to a good marriage! Without trust you cannot let yourself be yourself. If trust fails, everything can fall apart.
True Love is a “giver”. Each partner realizes the needs of one another, and wants to give it to each other. Unselfish partners know they must love each other just as Christ loved the church,…..with a servant attitude.
True loves pledges themself to one another for life! This is the only way God intended marriage. There is no excuse good enough to betray the “love” that God is blessing you with. Fidelity is the only way to strengthen the trust that is necessary to build a marriage year after year!
True love for another always wants what is best. Jealousy or envy does not enter into the heart because true love cares only to see the other be the best they can be!
True love is never hurried, always takes the time to see through every situation. True love waits for each other, no matter what, for what ever, and……..whenever.
True love is NOT based on sexual love. Many people confuse LOVE with sex, and this is a very sad situation. Those who are engaged in premarital sex will not be able to distinguish “true love” when their emotions are all tied up with sexual love. Sex is a gift from God reserved strictly for marriage! Likewise, those who want to marry just to fulfill a sexual need are always disappointed! Many married couples with children find very little time for intimacy, especially during the early childhod years. If your relationship is based on sex before and/or after marriage, you can be sure problems will arise! True love combined with sexual love between two married people is a wonderful gift from God, important to the oneness of the relationship, but NOT the end all to “married life”! If you take one thing from this site to your heart, it is our sincerest hope you will hear this message. Marriage is so much more than “SEX”! Making this your priority or basing your marriage on this will ALWAYS lead to heartache. Keep sex in perspective as to what God has intended it to be! Otherwise, you will find yourself never sastified…..and the result is devastating!
True love is NOT found on the outside! You know the old story….”You can’t judge a good book by its cover!”. Marrying someone because they are “good looking” and that reflects well on you, will not bring you happiness! True love looks at people from the inside, this is where “true beauty” lies, make no mistake about this one! People who “seem” average on the outside become above average when you get to know the real person that lives inside. There are many, many single people who would make fabulous mates, but are overlooked because they won’t make the cover of your favorite magazine. Being outwardly focused will always lead to heartache! The message here is that true Love rests deep inside within the heart, NEVER on the outside! We must turn our eyes inward when seeking a lifetime mate!What you don’t see…….is exactly what you get!!
True love is NOT ruining your life because someone has a problem. Everyone is responsible for their own life, actions and decisions. If someone’s decisions in life is making you “crazy” or you are trying to control their behavior, you are more than likely hurting them and yourself. True love can only lie in the person who takes care of themself. Are you putting your life and happiness in jeopardy because of someone else’s bad behavior? If your considering marriage and you are presently unhappy, controlling, enabling, or pushing aside someones bad behavior, you will find yourself in a world of misery! It is NOT LOVE to “rescue” someone from their own decisions!!! Everyone must pay their own consequences for their own actions! You cannot “save” someone from themself.
True love is NOT selfish! Selfish people make miserable mates! True love finds itself in unselfish people. Unselfish people know they get the most joy out of life when they give to others. There is no better joy in this world than to give. Selfish people care only about themselves and what they have and want. Meeting each others needs is so very important in a healthy marriage. Selfish people will find it impossible to give you what YOU may need because their needs will always come first!
True love is NOT measured in dollars! No amount of money in the world will bring you true love! The love of money is the “root of all evil!” Money makes people do things that they would not normally do. If you think you have to marry money find love and to have a good marriage and/or your problems will go away, you are sadly mistaken! Problems just get more expensive with money!
True love is NOT found in an unhealthly self esteem! How many people in this world believe that love will make them happy! If you are not happy now, no one else can bring that to you! You need to find your own love in yourself before you can adequately love anyone else. There is a terrible fairly tale out there that says “just find a man/woman” then, you’ll be happy. Happy marriages are found in two people who already love and care about who they are now. They are not looking for a partner to “prove” they are loveable. Likewise, when you feel inside that you are worthy….you will make better choices. People who are hurting and feel unloved sometimes will turn to the first person to come along to fill the emptiness they feel. More than likely this will not result in a healthy marriage. If you find yourself in this situation you need to step back from relationships and work deep inside yourself to find the root cause of your unhappiness. Until then,….you will not be able to make the best choice you deserve to make for yourself!
True love is NOT abusive! Without a doubt, any type of abusive behavior by either person is NOT LOVE! Love is the gentleness of the human heart! Love does not bear pain. Intentional pain inflicted “out of Love” is as far away from the truth you can get. Love builds up, never tears down! Verbal or physical abuse is an illness regardless of the reason someone may give for inflicting it. This type of behavior is never a candidate for marriage. ANY type of abuse before marriage is a guarantee to continue when married. Counseling for the abuser is the ONLY next step there is!
raIniNg dAy ROx
5:22 PMwhy do i lurve to play in the rain? cos when u r in the rain and u cry, no one will find out... that is one good thing abt playing in the rain....
these few days go home str8 after sch... maybe it''s gd cos can rest....
now stomach a bit pain.. like burning why? definitly not gastric.. is intestine ba? wahahaha
tok abt my work.... quite busy... tick wrong product... but manage to change it in the end.. the boss who hire mi like buay song mi like that... the other were better... money are hard to earn wor.. scarlie is silent quit like veins like that... wahahaha
6 more days but lproject not yet do... omg.... how? lazy to do.. was trying to do in sch but then alot of ppl give mi that type of yan shen like why is this girl searching for sex in the webbie... wa, xia suay sia... hehehe
nw going to slp.. later wake up then do my stuff.. good nite...
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
NO mOnEY
10:25 PMwat the fuck... kanna kan by my mother for spending so much money... she is gonna to confiscate my atm card.. wat the fuck..
nevermind... going to start work liao so it's ok.. tmr can work le wor... although is onli 4 bucks per hr, but then better than nothing.. at least i have something to do during my break time... although i cant eat chocolate, but then it's a fu qi to sell choco.. wahahaha...
haven study for marketing.. wathell... friday test liao.. anyway, also fail... so not gg to study le...
angel recover le... but then dun think fully recover... will be able to see her in sch tomolo ba.. hope so... life without her is meaningless... miss her alot sia....
got one da ji le... hope that there wld be another one...
oko shall stop here..bb
Falling in Love
1:37 PMWhen you think of your past love, you may view it as a failure. But when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher. In the game of love, it doesn't really matter who won or who lost. What is important is you know when to hold on and when to let go! You know you really love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if their happiness means that you're not part of it. Everything happens for the best. If the person you love doesn't love you back, don't be afraid to love someone else again, for you'll never know unless you give it a try.
You'll never love a person you love unless you risk for love. Love strives in hurting. If you don't get hurt, you don't learn how to love. Love doesn't hurt all the time. Though the hurting is still there to test you, to help you grow. Don't find love, let love find you. That's why it's called falling in love because you don't force yourself to fall. You just fall.
You cannot finish a book without closing it's chapters. If you want to go on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages. Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress. It is a lifetime venture in which we are always learning, discovering and growing. The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go. We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more than we can love ourselves.
On falling out of love, take some time to heal and then get beckon the horse. But don't ever make the same mistake of riding the same one that threw you the first time. To love is to risk rejection, to live is to risk dying, to hope is to risk failure. But risk must must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is risk nothing! To reach for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feelings is to expose true self, to love is to risk not to be loved in return.
How to define love: fall but do not stumble, be constant but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, hurt but never keep the pain. Love is like a knife. It can stab the heart or it can carve wonderful images into the soul that always last for a lifetime.
Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end. Loving people means giving them the freedom who they choose to be and where they choose to be. For all the heartaches and the tears, for gloomy days and fruitless years, you should give thanks, for you know, that there were the things that helped you grow. Loving someone means giving him the freedom to find his way, whether it leads towards you or away from you. Love is a painful risk to take but the risk must be taken no matter how scary or painful, for only then you'll experience the fullness of humanity and that is love.
Only love can hurt your heart, fill you with desire and tear you apart. Only love can make you cry and only love knows why. If you're not ready to cry, if you're not ready to take the risk, if you're not ready to feel the pain, then you're not ready to fall in love. There was a time in our lives when we became afraid to fall in love 'coz every time we do, we get hurt, then i figured that's why it's called falling in love.
wat is true love
12:21 PMwhat is true love?... y mus love be so complicating ne??... love is surly something that can't be force... to the one u love... u surly will no matter what... dou will protect her... and be her little tian shi... we can't control our little heart... so what if we fall for someone else when we are with someone... its totally not right... but... love can't be force... to me... starting is love that attract 2 person together... but when both are together... its responsibility that counts more... responsbibility to love each other forever and not hurt each other... be together forever... if u think of breaking one day... then what the use of being together.. this is how i think...
maybe i jus hope for simple simple one ba... which simple things are more hard to achive... yupX... i dun hope for bai ma wang zi... but i hope for a hao hao xia sheng... relationship to me... is to spend every single secs, mins, hours, days, months and years together... although its might seems super unrealistic... but... that's the power of love... i believe no matter how busy someone is... it's certainly possible to squeeze a little time huh... even seeing each other for 5 mins... its certainly better than nothing right...
putting each other in the first place... really can't stand that kind of guys who treat friends better... in the case... what for have a gf... who u treat them worse than ur friends... then isn't it better to have ur gf as friends?... omg... to me... a gf or bf is certainly someone who is part of ur life... someones where u would like to share ur every moment with... whether its happy one or sad one... someone where u could be honest with... no lies... no blames... really hate those guys who blame on their gf... omg... jus can't stand it...
likes guys who will protect their gfs... but surly... no over protective... in the sense till no freedom and asked ur gf to do what u said... that will totally be so NN ne... likes guys that is romantic... caring... understanding... put u before self... sweet as honey... responsible... devoted... won't break promise... yupX...
its totally rare to find le... but still... i hope i will huh... yupX... i will slowly find... let's say if i could live till 60... i have abt 42yrs to find... gee... yupX... good things is always worth waiting... cos rushing always doesn't have good result... esp in relationship... except if miracle happen...
Thoughts
12:15 PMwah... life is really getting weird sia... totally agree that human really change sia... but if change for better hai hao... but if another way... its so scary sia... now think think... really go through quite a lot in my life sia... which simply make me thinks lots before action now...
hmmm... saw a quote that goes... u know u truely love someone when everyday u meet is like the first time u jus fall in love... sweet doesn't it?... yupX... that is certainly the kind of relationship i am looking for... y can't people jus look back... at the very beganning?... if u know there is seperation... then y... in the first place be together?... hurt will only occur in the end... no point right?...
shall stop here le... still got lesson on.. bb
Wat is love?
12:09 PMlove is something that money can't buy... its a kind of feeling... love can make a lot of changes to a person... love is something everyone can't live without... jus like food, water and air... love create happiness... xin fu-ness... sadness... heartbroken-ness... all at the same time... love make a person to presude his or her life more meaningfully... love let ppl have goals... love make encouraging a never stop thing... love are selfish... it can't be share between two person... one person heart can only belong tos more than themselves?... y are human so selfish including u and me... sometimes i do think relationship are jus like sunset... nice... but for a short period of time only... xi yang wu xian hao, zhi shi jin huang hun... once night falls... it would be nightmare... i hope for relationship jus like sunrise... its nice... and ever lasting... it brighten up each other life... make the person u love so much happy... let them feel they are the most xin fu person on earth... let love overcome everything within them...
friendship
11:46 AMFriendship is a strange thing. We find ourselves telling each other the deepest details of our lives... things we don't even share with the families who raised us.
But what is a friend? A confidant? A shoulder to cry on? An ear to listen? A heart to feel? A friend is all these ... and more. No matter where we met, no matter how long we've been together... I call you friend. A word so small, yet so large in feeling, a word filled with emotion, a word overflowing with love. Truly great things come in small packages. Once the package of friendship has been opened, it can never be closed. It is a constant book always waiting... aiting to be read... and enjoyed.
We may have our disagreements... we may have our disappointments ...we may argue ...we may have concern for one another...friendship is a unique bond that lasts through all tribulations. A part of each of us goes into our friendships ... our humor ... our experiences... our tears.
Friendships are foundations... necessary for life... and love. Friends .. you and me ... you brought another friend and then we were three ... we started our group ...our circle of friends... there is no beginning .. there is no end.
Monday, June 27, 2005
in sch
3:10 PMtoday reach dover mrt... found out that angel was sick... wanted to go her hse de but then she dun allow jus becos she din _______... wahaha... sorry, cldnt be any help to u... hope u will get well soon....
EC lesson was a waste of my time... so sian.. nearly fall aslp in that lesson... pon stats again... wanted to go lib de but then too many people le.... went to play carom.... quite fun.. left my phone in my bag and didnt notice there was messages and miss call...
lance intro another job... i will be starting work on this sat.... Girls, sorry... went on without u ppl.. cos i think u people wldnt want this kind of job and prefer party box rite?
now having itab... so sian... nothing to do that's why come here and blog....
hope angel get well soon...
that's all.... bb
Time machine
1:04 AMif i am allow to go back to the past, i wud like to go back to the time
when everything was so simple and innocence
when i dun lie to anyone
when my parents are dote mi...
In conclusion, i want to go back to e time when i was young....
din play bbal today... angel woke up late and my mother ask mi play other time... so play 'soccer' instead... fun and interesting... wasleading at first but then my bro catch up and i lost... sad sia...
tomolo not gg to eat le... haiz... but then nvm... shall postpone the surprise to a later date... where shld i go tomolo? go home again? oh, no way!! still at home very sian.... rather be in sch lib to play games.. wahaha...
still got alot of work haven done... projects are piling up high too... haiz.... i m lost... lost in world of work... all i can see are hmwk and projects surrounding mi.. sound fantasy? wahaha...
tmr got ITab again... hope tat cher will dismiss mi early.. if not stay inside rot very sian...
how am i gg to spend my break time? go lib again? i dun dare to face him sia.. it's like i owe him something.. then everytime face him, so guilty... but then he is not bad... at least he still ______.....
tomolo in sch mus try to spot junda... then i wan get to eat chix cutlet wor.. wahaha... scarlie not same break time then too bad... bless mi sia...
erm, wat shld i cont with? my classmate? they are all hardworking lot... evn ang dou bing also very smart... dun study also understand.. but then i still catch no balls... wahahaa..
this fri will be the test for F.O.M.. sure fail de... so hard.. all case study... somemore i dun like the cher... also malign mi... slap him ar... hope that i will pass well ba...
shall stop here le... bb
Sunday, June 26, 2005
reflection
1:07 PMafter watching so many movies, tv, drama series, i noe that a man life is precious... we shld make full use of our lives and not waste it... Do wat u wan to do now and dont regret when u dont have the chance... and i want to play in the rain... simple yet enjoyable... it jus a wish of mine...
it's drizzling now... but i wan to play bball... haiz... the rain better stop if not i will slap the sky... long time nv play bball le... dont know still can play anot... nan de my mother aloows mi to go and play sia...
was awake by my mum cos she wants mi to go market with her... my bro and sis are like all dead... very tired now... onli slp for 4 hrs nia... now struggling with PACC... my bro is much more better than mi in this sub... help him do his hmwk but dunnoe how to do... find myself very stupid...
shall not continue le.. nid to study le... hope that rain will stop... tian kong mei you xia yu~~~
full month
1:16 AMyay... J.A.W is establish for one month le... so proud sia... during this past one month, learn from my mistakes and grow up le... will not be like last time...
F.O.M sucks... copy and read the notes le still dun understand.. and u noe wat, friday is the test... 10 percent.. sure die de... haiz...
Pon Ten equals to die.. it seems like i have lots of work which are not done yet... and now is like alr 2 am and i still have a moutain of hmwk...
jus now went to eat with my family cos my dad bdae is on monday... did not give him any present jus treat him eat nia... so long nv eat chilli crab le.. so nice... wahaha.. emm... yummy!!!
monday will go out eat with pucca and mua chee... will be giving them a small surprise... hope that they will not find mi lame... wahahaha...
and thanks huijie for acc mi... if not i will be bored to death le...
shall top here... nid to do hmwk le.. =( bb
Friday, June 24, 2005
Home.. Early
8:11 PMtoday is the first day of the week that i reach home so early... normally not so early de...
u all shld noe wat happen in sch rite? and mua chee scare mi... she was abt to break down..... luckily nth happen...
nearly lost my hello kitty and winnie the pooh... was scared... but manage to find it back in the end... oh.. thanks god... =P
after sch, went to jurong pt to eat... actualli wanted to eat swesens but then cos got pasar malam, then go eat pasar malam de food le... bought alot of food and then cannot finish.. the mua chee not nice de.. wahahaha...
then af ter that went home...
luckily tmr no nid do project.. so shiok,... can rest... wahaha...
ryan sucks... irritating little bastard.... kpkb....
shall stop here le..bb
oh my god... shag?!
11:38 AMhaiz... now in sch... very shag... very tired sia... imagine i can fall asleep in lecture....
haiz... life is too tough for mi to go on sia... very tired... aways nt enuff time to slp... =X
luckily today no activities... i will slp the moment i go home if not, some 1 will nian nian nian....
today will nto be able to see my dear pucca... haiz... but then at least i have been seeing her for the past few days le... wahaha... so today nv see is ok de... hehehe....
tomolo still nid to do project... and once again, i have to be in sch again...
WTF!!!!!
i nid to slp..... now still got one more hr to rot... what shld i do?
FOM SUCKS.. it's not my cup of tea... haiz... shall bear with the stupid ptm for 3 hrs.....
ren yi shi feng ping lang jin.. tui yi bu, hai kuo tian kong...
Thursday, June 23, 2005
wat a day
10:57 PMtoday is not a good day...
early in the morning sian half liao... stupid mrt so many ppl... and ppl like to squeeze... wat for? SLAP THEM AR....
then in sch also not good... jus dunnoe why... pon last lecture... went to suntec with mua cheee...
slack at kbox and ate soya chix rice.. very nice sia... then shane make mi a very nice tea... forgot the name le.,.. then treat mi eat chips and mushroom balls... so good sia... miss those werking day...
pucca join us later... went to watch initial D... it's a great project but very alike as the cartoon... so abit sian... onli the jay chou cry that part then nice....
went to bugis after that... lance join us.... at bugis, play like idiot again... play with saliva... the mua chee and pucca are so digusting... the surface, we seems like to have PMS... but if u look deep enuff, it's not purely pms....
then took 960 home.... jitao sian halfway.... alot of ppl.. cannot sit with pucca... no shoulder for mi... sob sob... haiz... but then aftter reaching bukit panjang, we sit together again... lie on her shoulder but then felt very guilty cos she is more tired than i am... offer her my shoulder but then after a while, she did not use it anymore... wahaha,.....
then reach wdl inter... send pucca off le then go help mua chee pay billl... then go home...
shall stop here.. bb
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
liver report
11:44 PMtoday went to amk to meet angel... she is damm late... but b4 that, went to cwp to buy cookie monster for anne.... and noe wat, i bought the wrong de... wahahaha
went to polyclinic on my own.... angel join in later.... and the report is out.... and the result is:
my liver are in ____ conditions... i might nid to go ____ and kanna ____.... The doctor wanted mi to _____ ... But i _____.... I nid to _____ the next month....
then jitao sian all the way... then go pizza hut and eat....then went to play arcade... then after a while, went to play pool.. and anne join us... i think my skill is the lousiest.... haiz..... last round we play 3 ppl pool... angel was so happi that she was leading... but in the end, she is the one who lose.... wahaha...
then went to paradiz for interview... then dunnoe is hriing mi anot... then after that went ps shop shop... have our own assmusement... wahaha... then took mrt home...
then got one faking loving sucky couple stare at anne... shld have slap them... wat the fuck... so disgusting... squeeze here squeeze there... onli mi fortunate... cos where can u find meat that is better to squeeze than anne's? wahahaha....
shall stop here... bb
wat a day
12:29 AMtoday went to raffles place to do project with mua chee and pucca....
then lance came cos we couldnt find the proper venue...
went to bugis to shop awhile... cos pucca wanted to buy shoe for tmr sch... but then in the end bought nth... whahahahaha
then took 960 home... and lance jitao follow us all the way till our bus come... feel very abit uncomfortable... cos is like a guy following us... then all actions and speech are being restricted... wahahaha
In bus, my cher teach mi a foreign language... wahaha... then saw this poor little girl spill the coke on her pants and yet her mother did not bother at all... wat kind of mother is this? wahaha... offered her two tissue paper and wish i cld give her more but i cant cos onli left two.. felt so useless at that moment... next time when i go out, i will sure bring alot of packets of tissue with mi de... wahaha...
pucca;
now then u noe that slping on someone shoulder is nice rite? wahaha.. i am still practising my FI language... cannot sia sway u de... i have alr pass down the secret manaual to mua chee le... see whether she improving first or i improve first k? whahaha
shall stop here le... feeling too happy le... dunnno how to say wor.. hehehe ... bb =)
Monday, June 20, 2005
dinner day
10:36 PMtoday sch sux... very shag... very sian.... haiz...
meet angel or shld i say mua chee at level 2 then go cwp....
went to sata... before that, went to eat mac... ate fries with no salt... no gassy drink....
then went to sata again... ps her cos have to meet my family for dinner...
paid for the food so ex but din realli get to eat much...
went to cwp to meet mua chee and pucca again... becos i meet them, that's why thwey have this nick... went to shop ard for shoe and bought nth in the end...
then after that go home...
and here i m, blogging here...
and thanks pucca for ur cd... wahaha... white de better... cos white represent kunda.. black one represent ah di.. also not bad lah... wahaha... anyway, next time dun anyhow spend money.. now budget.. mus save....
shall stop here le.. nid to do stats le.. bb
Sunday, June 19, 2005
useless mi
10:51 PMwent to angel hse to study....
pacc sucks... after so long still dun really understand...
jitao no mood to study... very tired... fall asleep...
sorry angel... i realli very tired... next time sure wun like this de.... wahahaha
have some miscommunication with anne... in the end, have to pia cab down to down... cos dun wan to make her go buy alone...
she went to buy contact lens then we went to Xcraft to ear stick... then to minibits to buy hairband... then went to minitoons to buy hp strip for angel... t hen go gelare to eat waffle ice cream...
falt very inferior when i saw other ppl eating thos very classy de waffle ice cream while i could onli afford to treat anne eat those small small single scoop de.. but then i will save hard so that one day can treat the two of them eat nicer and bigger ice cream...
then went home after tat... shall stop here le... bbb
lecture
12:50 AMwake up not long and left the hse...
went to meet anne at admiratly.... took mrt down to raffles place...
tot tat we will be later than angel but then, we are earlier.... tok while waiting for her to arrive...
went to robinson pt for interview... the interview is farking long... and the business consultant is like our lecturer... tok abt marketing, econs, acc and stats... wtf...
went to lau pa sa to eat with angel and her frenz ray.....
then went to take mrt home....
actualli meeting anne at cwp de.. but then, due to some unseen fore-circumstances, we did not meet...
shall stop here le... bb
Saturday, June 18, 2005
shiok
3:07 PMytd, after sch, met anne at westmall with angel and my classmate, cheryl... walk awhile, i went home while angel andf anne headed to suntec...
then go meet angel at suntec.. went to foodcourt to eat... then went to play aracade....
then slack ard here and there while waiting for anne to off work...
take turns to piggy back each other... and sit at the buggy ride de car there and act as we are in initial D... wahaha... i knoe it's not funny...
finally, anne off work le.. took a cab and headed to LCT to sing... b4 that, went to mac to buy fries...
3 pax waive 1 pax means onli charge 2 pax... sing like hell cos at the begining have open voice.. then while anne was singing Qian Nian Zhi Lian by F.I.R, mi and angel did something very stupid... i take the role as a guitarist while angel is the pianoist.. and while we were having fun, the stupid alan jiao came in and spoilt our fun...
and, wat i can say was ytd was very enjoyable... sing until the recept chase us away... and we did not forget to take photo....
went to boat clarke to take NR... the NR took damm long to reach.. i ran home all the way to be home by 5 so that my mum will not kao bei mi... but then u noe wat? she today nv work.. hai mi run until so jia lat...
shall stop here le... bb
thanks angel and anne for ytd...
Thursday, June 16, 2005
talented
11:31 PMall thanks to the FOM lecture today and make mi find out that my drawing is not that bad after all... suddenly have the urge to draw alot and alot of things... but this is being to ambitious... i noe i cant draw well... dun think will be giving the two of the the paper le... so sia sway...
stop here liao.. going to draw somemore le.. bb
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
tired
11:47 PMshall blog a little bit nia today...
went for the first lecture and after that skip the rest.
went to JE kbox sing with angel and angela... Enjoy...
Went to polyclinic but my liver result was not sent to there... wtf....
angel go rebond hair.... stoned there...
meet anne at her void deck.... chat....
took cab home.. the driver sucks....
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
sad
9:45 PM*edited
will i be blind? today my eyes bleed... first time sia... so honour... wahah.. nonsense...
tell my mum and she ji tao bo chap.. sad lei... now i noe why i treat my frenz better... cows they treat mi back better...
morning went to sch to eat breakfast cos i noe my ai xin breakfast was not prepared... wahahaha... during the ec lesson, while those serious de ppl getting info of homes for our cip, mi, sweeying, cheryl, angela and shikai were chatting and toking abt zippo... the real ah lian now is cheryl and not mi.. wahaha...
now my class is split into two le.. or shld i say the grps are becoming more and more 'obvious'? i dunnoe use wat word to describe... the two grps are form long ago.... it's jus that we have been accomodating to each other... and today, everything can be seen during the CD lesson... Sal they all jitao dun like our idea of selling tickets and all that... she insist in going to a home and help out... and they were the one who are doing the jobs in searching for homes while we are slacking... i believe that after not long, we will not be as united as we are...
today after sch go JE eat... eat the stupid chi rest... all china ppl... and i think that have free supply of oil... cos their noodles are damm oily...
go the so call pasar malam to eat... and angel is damm rich... keep buying stuff to eat when she is alr bloated... and i have to eat the stupid cheese thingy till not feeling welll... the pain was back after i ate it... now both front and back are pain... tmr gonna see doc again..
found an acc... inside gt $151.41... wahaha... i m rich worz.... for no reason got $151.41....
wat the heck happen to mi ... first is liver, then is chest pain.. then after that is eye bleed... wahaha... sway sia... now wan see doc also no money le... my parents are not gg to return mi my money... and i have a daughter and a lover to support..l. wahaha... now then i noe that money are hard to earn... haiz... shall stop here le.. bb
Sunday, June 12, 2005
relieved
9:32 PMchest pain... pain until cannot pain....completely cannot stand it... heed angel's advice and went to a doc... wat the fuck.... the one at vista pt is close.. the one at admiratly also close... went to north pt de after anne suggest to mi the one opp admiratly... the queue was damm long... it was at 23 when my quene number was at 32... i cldnt stand it and ask the nurse how long wld it take for my turn to come... the nurse allow mi to cut the queue and i see the doc first... the doc gave mi an injection and some med... and the pain was damm unbearable... cant even sit properly... after not long i went to see the doc again... took the medicine and pay 55 in totall... then my father come and fetch mi home....
angel,
dun feel that u r useless if u think that u nv acc mi go hospital... if that is the case, my bro, and parents shld feel more useless... dun blame urself le...
Saturday, June 11, 2005
happi
1:52 AMwahaha... so happi... anne finally tok to mi... after 4 days of silence, i finally regain my "voice"... will treasure this chance...
jus like wat angel told mi at the resturant... the stain have to be wash early cos it's still easy to wash.. as time goes by, it will be more and more stubborn... so must wash asap....
went to bugis after sch... actualli wanted to buy shoe.. but no time.. so nv buy...
go shuting hse celebrate... now still at her hse... sian....
SK told mi abt his family problems... he is a good guy.. he is sensible and noes how to think... he ask mi not to ke lian him... hope that everything will go fine for him...
marketing is realli hard... my classmate still think i very clever cos i can write out a para in 5 mins... but then all are bull shit answer... and turn out to be wrong... haiz... not gonna to take marketing next yr....
now everything is back to sq 1... and i have realli learnt my lesson... i will hao hao zuo ren now...
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
i deserve it
9:42 PMno matter wat i do now will not help mi in anyway...
i jus deserve it.. it's my fault...
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
long cold war
11:31 PMthis will gonna be a long cold war... go sch ji tao no mood... no matter how hard my classmate trying to act like a fool, i jus couldnt smile or laugh... haiz.... i wan to thanks all my classmate who have tried to lighten up my days...
have a tutorial abt 45 mins which susposingly 2 hr... went to FC 4 to have pizza... i did not wan to go but then since the whole class went, i have no choice but to follow.. play 5 10 and black white guess... loser have to drink the tabasco sauce... yeeks... very fun... and i think shikai, chantong and hongbin suffered the whole day... all jitao stomach pain..
then went to kbox after work to wait for my pay... the stupid karkit keep wanting us to pay... but we dun wan... and my tips was deduct by 5.94... haiz... then slack ard and con't my art piece in front of the cashier.... eileen and irene gave alot of coments... haiz...
went to bugis to eat with irene n angeline... then shuting help us take pay while we go shop shop with irene... saw 2 things very nice but it was incomplete... haiz... shall go find somemore... tmr, will go polyclinic after sch then go shopping... shall stop here... bb
to anne: i m realli very sorry... u dun angry le can ma? i today whole day nv touch C n liquor...
shane bdae
9:30 AMytd was shane bdae.... we, J.A.W, baoling, lance, belinda and two of shane frenz were at the swiss hotel celebrating bdae for her....
went to buy burger king while waiting for angel..... then while we are abt the go up, lance, kk, belinda came... then go up together... then we start eating and watching tv... then after that, they start to play their games while shane went to fetch her frenz up...
although shane look happi but then can sense that she is unhappi... she even quarrel with her bf on that day itself.... her bf wasn't very enthu and ended up she keep drinking alone... then i go pei her drink... then baoling come... then dance and drink... then we yam seng for suntec kbox...
i noe i drink alot.... whenever there is liquor, sure got problem de... now anne du lan mi le... ji tao dream that she and her ex patch... was lecture by angel... shld be awake by now... dun think i ever gonna touch liquor again le....
anne: sorry lei... u dun angry le can? wat u wan mi to do also can... jus as long as u not angry can liao... if u r not angry anymore, msg mi or call mi k?
Sunday, June 05, 2005
pasar malam
10:34 PMmeet anne and went to shop for shane present.... went to more than words at first... but then din buy anything.. walk past yellow and wanted to buy zipo cos it's damm cheap but then shane present is the first priority so intend to go buy her present first then decide later... went to mini toons buy her present... then still nid 8.20 to 50 so that can get free member... after much discussion, we bought another bear 8.90 for ting..., but then got discount, then still not enuff.. so buy two mentos... wahaha...
then nv buy zippo le.... go buy ring... 7.50 each... then engrave J.A.W on each and every ring... then got promos so total is onli 19.12 nia... cheap rite? wahaha... then go pasar malam walk walk... anne bought alot of food for my bro.. thank you hor... hehe... then after my bro finish eating, i make him call anne to thanks her.... shall stop here le.. bb
a phone call..
6:04 PMchatted with winston until 8 plus... was tired so did not realli listen to wat he say... wahaha... he ask mi help mi choose btw E and A.. wahaha... he realli very good at toking sia... then say wat go hotel slp with him... as in those realli slp and not have sex.. then i say that hotel no bloster then he say ask mi bring there... wahaha... realli happi to tok to him.. cos u noe i m not pretty and he still say i pretty... then say if E and A also dunnoe, he will choose mi... but then i noe he tok cock liao... then say wat i have inner beauty... wahaha.. he still say going to acc mi go take neoprints... wahaha... dunnno real or fake... but then i think it's not the truth... then he say wan give mi his card for mi to buy those slimming products... wahaha.... so good sia... but then it's fake de... hehehe... then tokt abt the night bar say he power... one day slp 3 hr... cos he holds a job in the morning.... then tok abt cashier... then both of us go slp... wahaha.. and all ends here...
ms
6:59 AMwent to ms with anne, angel, lance n his frenz.... open a chivas.... 150... drink n dance....
then went to bak gu teh until 4...treated by zhi xiang(lance's fren) then took nr2 home... reach ard wdl quite earli n slowlly to my block... then burnt my hand with a C.....
once again, i ps anne and angel... i think they will slowly start to dislike mi and slowly slowly hate me... cos i m always the spoilspot... haiz...
went to the nearby blk to play cAtching with a grps of malay of boys... winston call n was surprise... din expect him to call... cos when i was in rush i said tat he will call mi n he realli did...
wanted to go home earlie to call him but dun wan to c my parents so slack until 6.45 then go home...
now talking to him... very crappy... talking abt striking lottery.... shall stop here...
Friday, June 03, 2005
sian
2:02 AMtoday lesson quite ok ba... damm crapy sia, my accounting tutor.. sian lei.... found a S. kaki... and he is none other than hong bin... wahaha... went to biys toilet sial.. everything was secretive.. hehe...
whole class go to that resort again.. this time not play bowling.. but pool and arcade... very sia sway sia... 9 ppl play one machine... wahaha... but fun lei... hong bin was the one who sponser cos he is the onli with coins....
dunnoe is sway or lucky... pick up money!!! but i fall down... shoe spoil... wathell... wahahaha.... sian
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
sad
10:54 PMwat the fark... sad sia... y? y m i sad? haiz... help mi... i wan to be happi.... help mi...
practice boxing at void deck jus now... found out that tree can be a good puching bag.. haiz...
help mi... dunnoe wat to say le..
sway
8:14 PMtoday overslept and have to pia cab to sp... and u noe wat, i see the wrong timetable and tot that the lecture until 11... wat the hell... i shld have skip that lecture... and i owe xiao mei a meal
after that, went to food court 6 for lunch... after lunch, went to the 'resort' to play bowling... my class was quite united... and was talking all the way with xiao mei...
after that, all went to lecture tgt... sian lei... so boring... but FOM lecture was quite alive.. the teacher is lame... very very lame... adn he is good... gave us a long break and dismiss us earli... wahaha
waited for angel... went to popular to buy textbk... anne did not meet us cos we cld decide where to go... then went to jurong pt... play arcade... damm sia sway... wahaha... hehe... then went to eat ice cream... while eating, got a feeling like someone is missing... haiz... sad... the ice cream wld have taste better if anne was there... we both miss anne alot... realli hope tht can go out like we use to... then went home after that...
tired sia... gg to slp soon....