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wat the fark... dou shi wo de cuo.. i m the mess of everything... today is definitly not a good day wor...sad... why... tell mi... how can i wan jiu this situation... haizz... help mi... i dun wan to study liao... study hai people... how i wish time could stop at the time while we are all working in kbox... none of this wud have happen... fark mi...
sian
8:46 PMsian wor.... whole day study... was late in mitting my classmate for lunch... but then not onli mi late worz... wahaha... after lunch go for tutorial.... and tutorial.. nth else...
msg anne and called her... but then no reply from her... tot wat had happen but then nlow everything is alright le....
went to IMM with angel to buy polo for sch... waste money again... then nid to buy bks all that... broke le... haiz.. sian... tired...
Monday, May 30, 2005
....
6:43 PMerm, ytd went out together with the two of them... while they were meeting, i ate a plate of fries and drink 100 plus... then after they are out, saw terence... then i went to join them... after that have finish their drink, we went to veins for interview... the lady boss was good.... wahaha... shld i werk? shld i not werk?
after that, sat vyon car and went to eat prata with his frenz alex and kevin... if kevin wasnt a police, i might think that they are handling illegal stuff... wahaha.. they are always secretive.... and i PS angel and anne again... cos i have to go home so i have no choice..l. and the vyon is clever... he manage to help mi to get home by a cab with onli 10 bucks....
then today nearly cannot wake up... was late when mitting angel... walk all the way to the admin office and she forget to bring her o level cert... then she have to go holme again... and u noe, SP is not a small sch... wa, sian sia... somemore the sun so hot... wat the fark...
and, we did not get into the same class... nt even lecture... sad sia.... now thinking of changing class with junda... at least same lecture... see first hor... see junda de timetable how then decide lor... sad....
Sunday, May 29, 2005
PMS
3:16 AMpms worz... very sad now... dunnoe why... got the feeling like when i was in sec 4... whahahaha... fu gu?
sian sia... wahaha.... angel says that i must be thinking abt smthing that make mi so sad... but then i think i very fortunate lei... no worries at all... i got frenz, and family... no financial problems, no relationship problem... but then why is it that i ..... haiz... and i think i made joanne a bit du lan cos i told her that i m not gg tomolo... i m being scared by winston words and that's why i not gg? or is it becos i lazy? or maybe i think i will not be employ so i dun go? or is there any other reason? haiz...
Saturday, May 28, 2005
jie tuo
11:38 PM我 现 在 所 可 以 给 你 的 已 经 不 是 你 想 要 得
wo xian zai suo ke yi gei ni de yi jing bu shi ni xiang yao de
也 许 离 开 也 是 一 种 解 脱
ye xu li kai ye shi yi zhong jie tuo
寂 寞 就 让 我 一 个 人 承 担 好 了
ji mo jiu rang wo yi ge ren cheng dan hao le....
All the things i can give u now are wat u already dont whish to have
maybe leaving u might be a relief
Just let mi shoulder all the loneliness...
wat a meaning para it is... hope that the last sentence can be understand as my english is not that powerful worx...
shld i go tomolo? kanna reject on the spot is worst than anything... but then if i dun go, i will miss this chance.... wat shld i do? goddness of mercy, pls help mi...
today went to cwp pei angel pay sch fee and print the cpf subsidy application form... after that, went to eat jack's place.. then on our way to the library, bought something from a push cart... angel bought mi a pooh... although not very nice but thanks anyway... dun anyhow spend money worz... then went to library... ask anne to join us...
but b4 that, anne acc mi cos i tot it was going to rain and i have to bring in the clothes... then when we reach our home, i faster cook, wash mop sweep and keep the clothes while anne went to read newspaper... after a veyr long time, we went back to the library... read for a while and headed to the children session... be A malay teacher for a few mins and we headed to ntuc first... bought bread and fishball... then go walk walk ard cwp and bought ting present... then anne bought a belt and she went to meet her mother.... then mi and angel went home...
then nothing much interesting happen at home... jus find my dad very funy... he scolded jay chou stupid cos he didnt choose jolin and instead, he choose the hou pei ting... wahaha... then when jay chou and wang li horn were singing the other party song, my father cried.., for wat? maybe he too touch liao... wahaha...
and nothing happen liao... shall stop here... bb
HIGH
6:56 AMtok to winston on the phone... very crappy.. tok alot of da dao li... he v poor thing... come from a broken family... one sided parent... he very kan de kai.... noe hw to an wei himself... grow up liao... shld be sensible... and, he carry a torch for ..... oh my god!! wahaha.. very crappy... and anyhow come out with horoscope.... and yesh!! his hp no batt liao... means that i can slp le... yahoo!!! very happi sia.... good day ahead of mi....
Friday, May 27, 2005
another day
11:03 PMtoday slp till 12... watch scv... watch a thai boxing show... and the winner is a ah gua... then play com.... slack... do hse work.... then bath.... then went to meet angel...
reach sp... walk the stupid long strench of road... took her package... she is in the course of DBA>>. oh my... very zhun sia..l. ytd was saying that if she not in DBA, i will not be vegeterian... then she this morning go DBA... if i say not same class, i will not be vege, then that means that she will be same class as mi wor... went to drink soya bean and eat sandwiches...
after that, went to cwp de library read bk and slack.... anne and angel got the job as waitress liao... hope they will do well... so when i m poor, they will be rich and they will sponser mi... wahaha... yeah... shall stop here le... bb
flag day
12:45 AMtoday was sp flag day... finish my 'job' at ten... then slack all the way while the others go sell their sticker... mi damm pro sia... help junda to sell his sticker too... and the whole thing last until 1.30 and we went to the food court for our lunch.... we were seperate into 3 grps... the guy, the ang mo pai and the ji tou pai... and the whole food court was filled with our voices..
after tat, went back to sch... all the way fight with my class de chio bu... wahaha... now then i noe that chio bu are fierce and they like to beat ppl... ( angel, anne, swee yin) wahaha... then tok to anne on the phone until i reach dover...
went back to class... counted our fund... 868.77... wahahaha.. notalot but not bad lei... better than last year...wahaha... then went to meet angel and anne at the admin office... angel made a wasted trip to sp cos the jenny did not call her at all.. dunnoe why she so stupid to go down when no one call her... wahahaha...
headed to bugis after that... took the wrong bus... it's all fated... fate made us took the wrong bus which also helped us in the end cos the place we alighted is the onli place that has bus to go to bugis... slp all the way during the journey.. while the two of them keep toking non stop.... like two auntieS from those WET market... sia sway..
thyen went to kfc to eat and look for job... in the end, no interview at all cos the main purpose today is to SHOP non stop for the two of them... i m the victim... then spend alot of money today... and the dunnoe which pig ar, hai mi no suan pan zi to eat... dunno who lor... haiz...
when goign home is the funniest part of the journey... while mi and anne was on the bus, received an unexpected call... there was this little poor girl, she cldnt go home at all.. cos she was total broke... wahaha... in the end, she bo bian, pian bus fare to come all the way to wdl... wat more sia sway that, she cldnt find her ez link while she was on 901 and she scanned her student card... the bus driver OEI very loud sia... wahaha... then now that poor little girl is behind mi...
then my mother n mi gone case liao... we dun tok... we shout!! luckily i got my own atm card... if now, i will be living in a condition worst than those ppl in africa... cos at least ppl in africa can eat stone which are edible but i dun think those in sg are edible... wahaha... thank god sia... hehe this cold war will onli end when my sis come back in sg... cos my sis is damm clever... she can po my mother until she very happi... and means that i can go out until very late....
shall stop her now... bb
Thursday, May 26, 2005
today nv go for orientation... was sick... met angel and anne at cwp.. then headed to SP... sway sia... saw my senior... wahaha... tomolo mus go flag day... sian...
after angel settle with her stuff, went to mac to slack.... hunt for jobs on newspaper... went for one interview nia... think that they will onli hire angel and anne nia... cos they two damm chio lor... as for mi, i wun be so lucky ba... who ask mi nv grow pretty.. haiz... nvm lah... anyway, i m not short of money...
did not took a bus home... cos we cldnt find our bus... in the end, took mrt home... ji tao no shoulder for mi to lie on... sadz... wahahaha...
dunnoe tmr can meet the two of them anot... how shld i tell my mother? wat more stupid reason can i come up with? haiz...
realli happi to noe the two of them sia... wahaha... stop here now.. bb
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
i nid a cry
7:45 PMi wan to cry.... realli wan to cry... my family dun understand mi at all... so wat if i came home late ytd? cant i be sick today? and so wat if my bro is a guy? cant he keep the clothes? why must it be mi keeping... and still at e time when i was slping... wat the fark!!!
feeling damm xin ku rite now.... dunnoe why.. maybe gonna skip orientation tmr.... see how first... my class got a chio bu.... look damm like aiqin... why? why must it be aiqin again? vista point have one, now have another one... wat the hell..l.l.
good news everyone... angel is getting into SP de it course worz... better than nothing sia... which means that i have to be a vegeterian soon... haiz.. anyway, hope her all the best....
realli no mood to blog le... bb
omg!!
1:07 AMtodae actualli can eat crab de... but then in the end, .... haiz... ate at beach road... b4 that went to meet angel at city hall mrt cos she wanted to buy sneaker ( if i nv spell wrongly)... but then in the end also nv buy....
the food at beach road are not nice at all... and more ex.. shld have went to amk to eat... wahaha.. ordered all those chap ba lang... ate until very full sia... the stomach almost explode.. scary sia... acc angel walk to mrt station.. slack at the bus stop while they were watching the video clip.. then after that, mi and anne walk to the bus stop to take our bus while angel finding people to go out...
took our bus and there wasnt many people at first... but as the bus proceed on, more and more passenger board the bus... as anne was wearing off shoulder, have difficulties lying on her shoulder cos her skin too smooth... =X have to put a piece of cloth on it b4 lying...
reach home late... and my father apologise to mi again cos he scolded mi... wahaha... as for my mother, we two quarrel... i dun like her to insult my frenz.. she can treat her fren like those god and why cant i? and i dun think my frenz did anything wrong... jus gg out late is a crime? oh please, wat the fark is this? and i shall not care so much... die die lor... not as if my life very precious.. i have so many farking health problem liao... die maybe a easier way for mi... stop here...
Sunday, May 22, 2005
bad host
6:54 PMi m a bad host.... angel came to my hse and i jus left her alone in the room without entertaining her... and my mother... damm idiotic... show bad face... kns... scold mi, shout at mi and everything... i dun think people who come my hse will want to come my hse again.... i m a bad host.... haiz...
and i m perverse.... wahaha... i keep pinching angel arm until her arm is blue black.... paiseh hor... dun realli mean to pinch u... cos ur flash very nice to pinch... not like mine, so hard... saD sia....
bought a shoe for my brother.. hope he will like it sia... now realli broke le... haiz... i m sad and poor and etc etc etc....
and the farking alan jiao... wathell?! did he get close to mi jus to borrow money from mi? and the answer is yes... this time, i choose to believe myself.... haiz.....
eileen also very sad.. the one she love dun love her but then one she dun like love her like hell.... sad for her sia... hope tat she will see open abit..l. think too much also no use.... wat meant to be urs will be urs eventually... like mi, i noe he dun like mi, so i also can do nothing much....
nothing much to blog... bb
the answer is out
12:45 AMoh no... the answer is out... anne got it rite... sad sia... not mi wor... i hate him... realli hate him sia... but then i expected it... so cannot be help...
Saturday, May 21, 2005
sway
2:56 PMsway sway sway... why m i so sway.. tell... leg damm pain now... stupoid metal ruler... why mus u lent on my feet... pain lei... r u stupid or wat? wathell.....
tired sia... nothing to do again... lazi to do hsework lei... and neither do i wan go a lan jiao hse... he treat mi as if i m his maid... wat the hell... luckily he has no access to my blog... if not i think we are going to quarrel... he is damm childish sia..
nothing more to blog
bb
nothing shld hav happen
6:39 AMeverything shldnt have happen.. is all due to my kpo-ness... i shldnt have tok to him... shldnt have lent him pen... shldnt have chat with him on phone... shldnt have tok cock with him... and if i have not do all this, he wldnt had say such things to me... and if he nv say such thing to mi, i w;dnt have felt like a idiot... waiting stupidly for his reply... wathelll!! haiz
hungerpang
4:03 AMthis few days been eating alot... did i get hunger pangs again? i hope not... have been craving for sweet stuff.. but then i did control myself... there wasnt any ice-cream or chocolate entering into my mouth... jus that i have ate alot of fruits.. i myself also did not notice that i finish a kilograms of grapes in just 30 mins... OMG!!! better not let my brother find out... if nt, jialat...
today went to eat at geylang.. jus misses their fish veyr much.. whahaha... althought a bit oily lah but who cares... it may be my last time eating seafood le... haiz.... stomach pain sia... dunnoe why... sian ar... luckily Benz was online jus now.. chatted with him for awhile... let him tok some senses into mi...
monday orientation? but then mon is a PH... will the sch be open? how? and the onli way is to pong ten... will onli be gg on tuesday and it will be the onli day( think so).... sian ar... sch starting soon... inside de people all i dunnoe... and angel has not got her reply... wathell is the sch doing? why are they so slow... like tortoise like that... hope that my sincerity will be able to touch the guan yin ma and the the two of them be enrolled into a poly...
Friday, May 20, 2005
fat pig
2:06 PMgrowing faTTer and fatter.... my dietary meals will make mi eat more nia... haiz.... sian sia... at home rotting... nothing to do... all my frenz are either working or studying mi... except mi, slacking and rotting....
ytd, angel call mi when she was working... she was terrified.. i think she can get use to the environment ba... think she will not be working today le.... wahahaha....
sian lei... wat can i do... i onli noe how to slp nia.... SIAN....
Thursday, May 19, 2005
vegeterian
5:12 PMthis sunday, i will be going to the guan yin ting to pray and make two wishes.. and i noe the onli way to touch guan yin ma and make my wishes come true is to be a vegeterian... so i m willing to give it a try... for my dearest frens...
in this period of time, people, pls dun tempt mi with meat and liqour... wait till my wish come true then come celebrate with mi k?
angel and anne, hope that u two will get into poly... and realli if u two got into poly, u two mus study hard worz. dun play play le... especially anne, u will be taking ur eng paper at the end of this year... so mus study hard k? got any problem, come find mi... i will try to help u de... take care worz u two.... luv u 2... muackzz
everything 's alright
2:41 PMytd after doing all the hsework, waited for angel and headed to SP... went into the admin office, and the people say that the reply will not be out so soon... i think this means that .... but then i alr have a plan... if the she realli cannot be admitted (choiX3), i will jus drop out.. u all may think i m foolish to make this decision... wahaha
after that, went to far east to cut my hair... dunno why when my hair was bveing cut, my heart very painful... joanne u shld noe rite? whahaha... then after that meet joanne and her frenz cyndi... her frenz is good... she came to acc mi when i was alone... cos u all noe hor, anne and angel go shopping hor, very .... de... wahahaha
then went to slack below cine... was deciding whether to go kbox anot... after much of a ...., we decided to go kbox and sing... went to c4 and c8 but then too ex... then go lct... saw ah lan jiao... wat the hell... then sing and sing... terrence was there too.. then when we are abt to go home, anne and angel each give mi a pooh bear... it was swit of them but then i think that they shldnt have waste money on mi... they alr have not enuff money to spend le then now still buy things for mi... thanks anyway... then went home after that,,,
when reach home, i was safe... no one scolded mi or nothing... then slp all the way till now... wahaha..
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
worried
9:54 PMtmr will be gg to sp... worried sia... if successful, still have to fan whether same class anot... if not successful, trying of ways to beg the people to let her in... how? scared lei... this is her last chance le.. may god bless her...
break camp
5:16 PMcame back from my 'camp'.... realise that my key is with angel.. tot of slacking at the void deck waiting for angel to come but thnen in the end, i have to go back all the to sengkang again... oh shit... went to her hse by cab... broke sia... =( reach her hse and went to bath... then she cook noodle for mi to eat.. after that watch vcd... i think i m too tirred that's why fall asleep when i was watching... then went to her room slp till 4 and went home...
now tok abt my 'camp' le....
we are 'divided' into groups.... my grp is SK... it consist of sm, yw, jefferine, felreen, winston, travis , lance and kelvin... within this group, we are divided into another 2 grp... i belong to the grp with sm, yw jefferine...
day 1, when we reach our slping place, we put our bag and start our adventures... went to "prison", a so call theme park... the activities there are all very exciting? quite ok ba... then play play play... jefferine and yw went back first while mi and sm keep on playing... then after that, we went back to our slping place, J n yw have alr bath finish and they are preparing to slp le... while they were slping, we prepare the food for bbq and went for a walk... when we are back, they woke up... we play game and we were damm high... sm was the most jia lat de... cos i think her stomach not good, keep on vomitting... have to look after her like her mother...
day 2, we went to eat our breakfast at the 'canteen' with our another 2 team member, lance n Felreen.. then we went to shop ard and head back to slack... play and play... play dai dee and the loser will have to let the winner to draw on he or hers frenz... wahaha... in the end, felreen become ru hua, lance become a pondan and sm become a dog... and as 4 mi, i will not say... then went for cycling trail with my own sub grp... after that, at nie, bbq... noe 2 more ppl... then the rest of the grp member join in... and alot of things happi... happi and sad... nth much to say...
and the third day, we break camp after packing...
now tok abt ppl in suntec... i think suntec girls are abit .... they can love somone until so .... but then it's also a good thing... next time who stead with them, they sure enjoy de... whenever i m with suntec girls, crazy things will happen... shh!! anne and angel, dun tell others ok? wahahaha... eeeeeeeeee..... hope that got chance, can go chalet with them sia... waahaha... but then is best that onli we 5 ppl... no more other people..yeah...
Sunday, May 15, 2005
boring
12:15 AMnothing to blog today.. jus very tired... spend alot of money on bra and panties... haiz... tired sia... tomolo got 'camp' still have yet to pack my bag... lazy sia...
Saturday, May 14, 2005
indecisiveness
2:33 PMshld i go? shld i not go? i dunnoe whether i shld go for the chalet anot... i noe that my appearance will spoilt every one mood... and i scared my farking attitude will hurt someone again... so shld i go?
baoling, if i nv go, i will return u the money on thursday cos i gg suntec on thursday...
attitude problem
12:23 AMoh shit... i hate myself... i hate my attitude... i hav a very serious attitude problem... oh shit... i jus cant control... wat the fuck... feeling very guilty.. haiz... so sorry to people whom i hurt with my farking attitude.... sorry
Friday, May 13, 2005
friday the 13th
10:11 PMarr... bad day... why? tell mi? will we be close like wat we use to be? do u think i realli hate u? if i realli were to hate u, will i be so stupid to cry in front of everyone... haiz... out of so many people, i trust u the most.. i m afraid to lose u as my frenz.. i dunnoe how to continue liao....
first is joanne, second is angeline... then who knows, maybe next will be shuting or baoling...
why didnt the car knock mi down? maybe i will not suffer in pain now.... i will not have to be so sad... why!!!!!!!!!!
dont like the feeling to be drunk... i still tot can be like last time, when drunk, jus anyhow tok and shout.... watever shit also can shout out.... but then now i have grow up, i shld have think of how others feel... to u people, u all might think that when one is drunk, wat they say are those thing that they kept in their heart... but for mi, i will anyhow bullshit and can even cruse someone until i happy....
tot that last day will be happier than other days.. but then still, tears rolled down my cheek... didnt even attend the meeting at all.. and ms joey was shocked to see mi cry...
i realli dunnoe wat to blog.. my xin is very luan... i scared i will lose another frenz... i dun think things will be the same as before...
FUCK SIA....
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
guilty
11:02 PMafter reading anne blog, i m feeling guilty...
joanne, u dun have to apologise to mi.. u r not in the wrong... i m... i shld have wake up earlier... after u went off that day, angel did tok to mi again.. i will take care of myself... u dun worry so much k?
today late for work... cannot wake up sia... reach city hall mrt and was shocked to see darren... then he told mi abt his chalet and angel's thing....
as usual, when working, i was not in the cashier... i run here run there... and i slp in k6... wahaha... then slack and slack until M. Shew reach here....
after work, acc darren go paradiz centre to get his voucher and shun bian go find irene... slack there 4 abt half an hour... see alot of big head face esp. the Sam Ong... went to Long john to have dinner... then we are walking to Mrt, we saw angel n shaun... regret calling angel cos i scared that darren will got bash shaun up... and the angel still run all the way here to find us... wathell!!! luckily nothing happen...
now my mother is damm angry with mi... cos i always go home so late... dun understand why she cant let mi go out... mus tied mi and control mi.. wathell!! my apologise to mi for scolding mi... wahaha... i have got a good father...
now nothing to do.... sian... dunnnoe that angel will call mi anot... mus wait wait wait... still deciding tmr whether eating with steven or staying in KBOX to wait for joanne... haiz...
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
...
10:14 PMa lot of things happen for the past two days.... haiz... on sunday, meet angel to take neo print... then after that go starbuck.. then went to my hse... tok n play the whole nite.....
on monday, went to meet joanne after work... eat pasta and shop shop... after that, went to pasir ris, darren frenz de chalet... and of cus, happiness and sadness... so shall not write too much....
angel, i understand how u feel.. i think u understand mine rite? wahahaha... wat the hell m i tokking abt?
today totally nv work at all... slp in 19 until 11.. then go slp in k6 until 3... after 3, went to shop shop eat eat and slack slack.. chatted on phone with winston again.... wahaha... and this is how i spend my day... and there is a short in money... 2.70.... frm tat incident, can see tat the cashier cant be bothered... wahhaha..
baoling today scolded ah dai... he nearly quit sia.. but then after a tok with shane, he decided to stay.....
very tired sia... TIRED,TIRED,TIRED,TIRED,TIRED...
shall stop here... bb
Monday, May 09, 2005
nothing to say
1:28 AMt0day damm du lan at work... cannot stand the new cashier... i have nothing to say... went home after that... then u noe wat, i also dunnoe how to say.... wahahaha... now angel at my hse... mus go pei her le... blog tomolo.. bb
Saturday, May 07, 2005
whahaha
11:32 PMfinally finsh project D... tot still can get one grp photo for the last card, but then .... haiz... nvm lah... find that the cards are damm ugly... dunnoe why... thanks ppl for consoling mi... wahaha...
dunnoe why still feel that there is a gap between us... dun u think so? haiz... why lei? jus that we are in diff world? or wat? m i too childish or wat? i dunnoe... haiz...
today everybody rush to leave their notes on the a4 photo b4 giving to them... wahaha... after much rushing, it's completed...l hope that u girls will like it although is a bit simple... i jus couldnt think ok anything.... hope tat we will meet once every 2 week worz...l.
today chatted with elieen... she told mi that joey 'scolded' irene... oh, wat the helll... she is just onli a senior and not a ACC lor... fuck her to death k? i will curse and curse her.... she think she damm big sia... knn... money missing also dun wan to inform viyond... if it was mi, she sure first one to ask mi pay up... dunnoe hw the hell she settle the thing.. if she realli nv pay up, she might as well go and die....
my memory is failing mi... to think that i can forget to bring home angel letter... wat the hell.... wat am i think? tell mi... i think i nid some vitamins to improve my memory... =x
and finally, viyond agreed to let mi quit on 15... and my last working day will be on the 13... yahoo!!! dun nid to suffer there le... but then realli sad to leave there lei.l.. there still got alot of ppl like irene, M. shew, bar, server that let mi she bu de wor... wahaha...
winston is a bad guy? he lied to mi... i saw him destroying my pen and instead he told mi that he return my pen... but then, it's jus onli a pen.... he very nerd sia.... why kbox de guys all nerd nerd de.... today go home with lance... and he is not as nice as u all think... he is not gentlemen at all... for more imformation, can come and ask mi... whahahaha...
now watching scv while waiting for baoling to go online which is ard 5... still thinking whether to cut my hair anot... ppl, pls give mi suggestion... my head is breaking... other than watch scv, i have gt nothing to do le... that tupid shuting also nv call mi sia... think chatting with her XX ba... realli envy u girls..... got guys that like u all n all that... whahahaha... ji shi cai dao wo ne? haha...
tok abt guys, today i overheard a conversation saying that joe is coming back... n u noe wat? someone is damm excited sia... i also dunnoe how to describe here... if u were to come to mi personally and ask mi, i sure will be able to act it out for u... but then pls prepare a plastic bag b4 u come... wahaha...
and pls, ppl out there, pls take care of urself... dun smoke and drink so much... nt good for ur body worz... mus slp early... dun always go chiong chiong chiong... dun eat too much sweet, sour, salty and spicy stuff... eat bitter de nvm... eat ku gua is the best... dun when kanna something ( choi X3) then regret nv take good care....
tmr will be anne and angel last day le... wo she bu de ni men worz... wahaha... u people are so good to mi... touch sia... ='( i will bear u people's word in mind.. dun worry, i will be more le guan and smile more so that angel will like mi... wahaha... u two also nid to take care... study hard... maybe next time we can go into University together... then we open a clinic... let baoling be the nurse.... wahaha... then anne be the one programming all the computer in the clinic, angel try to use wat she have learn to attract customer, shuting go be the accountant... and mi, wahaha, i jus sit there collect money... wahaha... good idea rite? i also think so lei...( all this are fantasy)
anyway, dun lame liao... dunnoe wat to blog too... so, i think i shall stop here le worz... bb.. gd nite...
tired
2:23 AMfeeling very tired this few days.. and abt my project d, it's going to be completed toon.. wahaha.. so happi sia... at least i make it in time.. but then i think i will be adding more things so tat they will not find it too plain... realli hope that they will like it cos it's a little bit too ugly... haiz... wat to do? i m not creative...
tomolo have to go stat again.. to submit my letter... wow, think no nid to slp le... anyway, ytd sleep too much liao... dont even know that i fall asleep myself... onli after anel call mi, then i m convince that i had fallen asleep... AND u noe wat, i have fallen from the bed again.. realli not fated to slp on bed...
2 more days worz... sad sia... today submit another resign letter to viyond.. dunnoe whether she will accept anot.. haiz.... sick and tired of working liao... wanna take a rest sia...
life is full of problems... it will never be solved... problems arise one after one.. haiz.. and die is not the best way to slove the problem... you people have to learn to accept things in life... made things to ur advantages... haiz... nothing to say le... to ppl out there, take care of ur health and everything...
Thursday, May 05, 2005
dying
4:48 PMwat the hell... went to amk poly clinic to see doc... the doc say my liver gt problem... nid to check into it.... wat the hell... nid to take blood.. and the nurse poke my hand two times and the holes are now swollen... haiz... i felt so lost... so many problems... got dbt, now still got liver problem.. haiz... i scared that i will leave this world soon.... perharps i m dying soon... but then i will not regret dying cos i have once live my life to the fullest... i mus thank baoling, shuting, angel and joanne... they let mi felt so happi whjenever i m with them... i chong lai mei you xiang guo will be so gam with them cos they are working nite shift, and i m the onli one working in the morning shift... i shall now leave personal message for them...
BAoling, u r the oldest so i write to u first... u r always the da jie da... u r the leader while we are the follower... without u, we will not be able to chiong le... no more house pour for us... hehehe... next time when i not ard liao, u musn go find other poeople tok to u worz.. or u can try to slp more then i appear in ur dreams... thanks for ur everything... love u worz...
shuting, next time when other people meet u, u dun be late worz... people will not like it de.. i m diff... haha... u very small n cute... enjoy toking to u on phone.. especially when i m working... cos i realli very bored worx....haiz... but then dun think next time got chance le...anyway, u take care too worz...
angel, next time dun drink too much worz... i wun be able to acc u when u r vomitting le worz... mus grow up... dun smoke so much... not good for ur health.. wan to hug and kiss mi mus grab the chance... cos i realli very scared... scread that no more chance... u too, take care... love u
joanne, ur turn liao... no more chocolate and ice cream le worz... kanna scolded by the doctor.. haiz... now gt more problems liao... no more liquor liao... but then who cares? whahaha... u hor, dun always so straight forward... u will hurt people de do u noe? hehe..e but then sf also not bad at least u get to the point straight away.. good for u ba... dun forget that u owe mi a meal and u still have to piggy back mi before i leave hor... haiz... i will always love u de... hehehe..
that's all e girl power... other frenz i will blog tonite... i realli very scared... scared that i might jus leave this world... but i realli dunnoe wat i can do... haiz...
"sentosa"
1:31 AMtoday go "sentosa" with joanne... for "interview" dun understand can come ask mi... wahaha... then go bugis to take neo print... fun sia... spend ard 34 on it... whahaha now broke le... enjoy!!! hehehe... then after that, went to eat chicken rice... then eat the stupid frozen strawberri.. becos joanne wan to eat, then i secretly go buy the strawberry.. then felt like a idiot cos i nid to hide from her.. then got one guy see liao still lauff... so sia sway... spend finish all my money le.. whaha... then took 960 home... slping during the journey to cwp... first time sia, can lay on ppl shoulder to slp instead of the other way round... but then her shoulder abit too low..l. so have diffculties slping.. whahaha... then now at home scanning all the photo... lazy to post it up... nany nany poo poo... going to continue my project D liao... bb
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
pitch tent
12:46 AMwent to ecp ytd... wahaha... it was my stupid idea... shuting acc mi home... then we took cab down... cab fare is 20... the driver is very friendly... wanted to treat us eat rojak.. then reach there and built our tent... after much struggling, we manage to build the tent... yay!!!... eat hor fun and hongkong mee and tok to xiao xiong while waiting for the two da xiao jie ( anne n bl) to come.. fall asleep after that... and after a few hr they reach here... tok play drink until 6 plus... then yj come too.... we left the two of them to tok while we take photo 4 our project D... wahaha.. after that, pack up and eat macdonald eat breakfast.... then after that take cab to work... lazi to blog wat have happen... but then took alot of photol... still nid one group shot b4 i can start project D... tired liao... bb
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
i wan to thanks bl, angel n anne... cos they chatted with mi on msn so tat i m not lonely... wahaha.... today meet shuting but then she late.... very tired sia... wan to slp... later going east coast park le... wahaha... but then a bit sad cos angel not gg... blog tomolo..
Monday, May 02, 2005
scared
4:14 AMjus finish changing my blog skin... and also helped baobao to create a blog le... her blog webbie is http://baobaobao.blogspot.com.. intend to use 3 bao becos i dunnoe wat to use.... scared later use wat love love de then she very sad... wahaha... luckily she got ask mi help her make one... if not, i dunnoe how to spend my time... dunnoe why so scared... last time when my mother go oversea, got my frenz come my hse to pei mi... but now, i m all alone... want to slp also cannot slp... very tired sia... dun dare to leave my bro room, dun dare to go toilet, dun dare to look out of the window..... but i have nothing to do... watch finish fish leong de concert dvd le... help mi!! i m dying of boredom... any kind soul can help mi ma?
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1:08 AMeating cake now... but haven eat medicine... i wan to be like a normal person... i dun wan to be on medication.. i dun wan to go see doctor... haiz...
my hse onli left mi alone and i m scared... i scared to be alone in the hse.. how? help mi.... dun think can sleep tonite... how m i going to spend the rest of my hrs to wait for the next day to come...
tomolo dunnoe comfirm going beach anot... sian.... stop here... bb