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happy new year everyone...
this year new year feeling is so diff... i dun have the new year feeling at all.... damm bored....
went to sk today.. and the 161 is damm long... pissed off man.... took a cab down instead..
had reunion dinner.... eat a little and i was fulll....
gg back malaysia for 3 days.... so wun be able to update.....
gtg.. bb..
Saturday, January 28, 2006
i m very tired.. fall asleep half way when i watching the 9 pm show.. and it's the final espisode.... sian sian sian....
tooday jitao nv bring money to sch.. felt so broke.. but din let anyone notice.... edwin was kind enuff to treat everyone yogurt... whahahaa...
mob skit went well.. but it's like so sia sway.. and i m sure that cheryl is not happi with me....
gotta pia everything b4 i go malaysia tmr.. sian sian sian.... IDEAS is a big headache liao....
looking forward to next thur.... cos wed got test very sian.... fan hui de shi wu gui....
gotta slp now.. bb
Thursday, January 26, 2006
i shall now officially declare that i m sick.. my head is in pain.... and i have to do mob and ideas and crs... wtf!!
i m not a human anymore.... i m worst than a dog... i dunnoe how to think.... now i also dunnoe how to blog... my dad and my mum quarrel becos of me again.. and it's like new year coming.... they are not going to bother abt mi anymore... shld i be happi or sad? i thought i long for this day for a very long time liao...
csc is another one... she also not gg to care abt whether am i attending her lesson and lecture anot... she noes that i m gg to be ban from taking the paper....
and my grpmates... they are utterly disappointed in me... is either i nv go sch or i nv meet up for project... they are so sick of it that they jus give mi one chunk of stuff to do and leave me alone.... and usually, i nv contribute anything cos i din attend lesson. and i always drag their marks down due to my presentation skill... and for this coming wed, i wun be able to make it to do ideas.. and they are going to hate mi for sure....
my life is so screwed.. so shld i be happy now that i landed up in this state?
clubbing sux
5:05 PMpon sch ytd... do i give a damm? went for stats test... fail in the end.. shldnt have go... waste of my time onli... sians....
okok.. i will try not to go clubbing again... everytime clubbing sure got problem one... and i shldnt be there too.. i m the onli underage and is like i make them cannot go those mature club and have to be stuck in rush....
i m a hypocrite... i am someone who don mean wat i say..... ya, i admit i hate him.. but all the while, i was toking to his fren. his fren was lame enuff to kip me awake all that.... u can say i m a slut or a bitch... i flirt with his fren... but that the onli way i can flirt cos when guys see me, u think they will flirt with mi? i jus simply sux.... i m useless.. everytime u tell me stuff, i also dunnoe how to react.. i cant give u solution..... maybe freom now on, u will stop telling me stuff and we might jus end up becoming those aquintance who say hi and bye to each other......
now every subject got 4 0 liao.... and my mob will most probably be debarred... this is wat i hear from shi kai.... my teacher jus cant be bother with me anymore... shld i start studying hard? or shld i continue the way i m at now? it's jus too sucky....... kill mi man....
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
sch sux
4:20 PMsch realli sux.... people sux, teachers sux, homeowrk sux, test sux, exams sux, project sux and grp mates sux......
luckily u nv ask mi come back to sch on new year eve if not i will just give u one tight slap....
i m starting to hate myself... hate myself with every stupid reason.....
since i start to learn, nothing has realli been successful for me... everyth ing jus screw up... my life, my studies, my social circles and everything.....
i always use to compare myself with others when i was in sec school... i will always be the one who is very thick skin and will assume i m the prettier to the one i compare with... and the one i compare with is the one usually jus got a stead..... so i kinda bu shuang.....
but now, i dun even dare to compare.... i will think i m the ugliest and lousiest in the world.... no more comparing... it will onli demoralise mi more...
it's hard to be a human being.. if u r very confident of urself, people woll think that u r proud and mu zhong wu ren.... but then if u think lowly of urself, people will think thay u have low self-esteem.....
so, people will learn as they grow.. but this does not apply to everyone.. i think i will be the one outside this category...
crab
12:21 AMtoday is jitao no mood to study... discuss mob and very lame... wahahaha....
found a sugar daddy... chan shi kai.. wahahaha... jkjk....
did not jog in the night so jog in the day instead.. hehehe...
went to kbox and sing...
eat crab.. thanks alot for ur crab... wahahahaha... and it's angel's dad bdae.. happi bdae to u....
is my mouth realli so zhun? i m abit scared.... i tot it's just a game, but it's so true... i suspected u when we were planning and u finally admit to me... all i noe is, the more u wanna hide, then more obxious it will be.. trust mi... good luck to u for ur next move be it confessed or wat.. hehehe... jus call me if u nid any help..
gotta study for stats liao... good nite.. take care...
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
merry and happy?
10:00 AMmerry:
Full of high-spirited gaiety; jolly.
happy:
Cheerful; willing: happy to help
so wat is the diff between happy and merry?
why is it that people are being wished by merry xmas and not happy xmas? and y is it happy new year and not merry new year?
this is the power of language... is like shit and pass motion... many people prefer shit cos it is easier to prononuce and onli one sound... unlike pass motion, it's long and naggy... 3 sound....
it's not easy to master the language of english... and here i m, still learning.. but my eng jus cant seems to improve... jus on the pronounciation, it's a big headache for me liao... so? haix...
okok... jus being bo liao so created this post... it makes no sense at all... sian...
Monday, January 23, 2006
The truth is, laughter always sounds more perfect than weeping.
Laughter flows in a violent riff and its effortlessly melodic.
Weeping is often tough chocked, half strangled, or surrendered to with humilitaion
~Anne Rice
home earli
10:31 PMi m back at home.. with nth to do.. try to ask ppl out but fail....
went to np to watch scray movie 2..... movie was very funny and a bit dirty.. hahahaha...
wanted to mit up with huishi, but she is too far away from where i m... so nv mit up... next time ba.... took 184 to bukit timah and change to 961 go home....
i realli dunnoe i come sch for wat? is like so sian... how i wish i can get a diploma without even attending sch.. this will be the best...
exam coming liao... 20 feb is the first paper, pacc.... last paper 1 march, stats..... sian sian sian....
itab is so fucking idiotic... dont even understand wat tan yeow huat is toking abt.... sian sian...
anyway, change the link for my blog... www.wen-new.blogspot.com...
moive
1:28 AMwent to dye my hair ytd... red again.. yeah... love it man..... but take too long... nearly rot... sian.... nv go bugis with angel and her parent..... wasted... wahahaha....
watch cheaper by the dozen 2 ytd... funny and heart warming..... cry at 3 diff part during the show.... hehehe....
after moive, went to mit vincent at vitsa point... slack awhile then go home le...
urg!!! my laptop de key is spoil... gonna go repair liao... but then must wait after cny.... hehehe....
go slp le.. bb
Saturday, January 21, 2006
suckers = me
4:08 PMfinally got a chance to sit down to rest.. have been doing stuff since this morning from 9 till now.... let mi blog wat happen ytd...
mit up with yc, angel and eddie after seeing a doc.... went for a fag break and went to pak pool... as usual, it's not fun.. cos i dunnoe how to play.... after pool, yc left... went to play arcade... i think that game machines are faulty that why lost to angel.. wahahhaha...
went to creation.. halfway, went to find my father... tok tok tok... and he is sick.. wahahaha.. and of cus, eddie and angel toking outside the building.. cos they paiseh.. wahahaha... join them awhile then continue our walk to creation... nv realli tok to joanne...
after her work, walk to dohby ghaut mrt.... while the two of them are toking, mi and eddie was trying to like create stunts... fail at the first attempt but success on the 2nd attempt... wahahaha....
then the two of them went to fantasie and mi and angel took the nsl... wanted to go home but then abit tempted to mit vincent so folloow her go mit xm... i shldn t be there in the first place... play pool again.... cheated so kinda fun... but still sian...
took a cab to serangoon go mit vincent and his cousin... atw two kosong and their milo damm sweet.. they are damm crappy and cocky but not long after awhile jiu sian liao... wahahaha...
took a cab home....
it's hard to be a good person... realli very very very very hard...
i dunnoe wat i have done is correct or wrong.... i wanted to help but i guess i was being too implusive... i think i ruin everything ba... forgive mi u two... i always dunnoe how to think b4 i act... jus want to get everything done in the shortest way out... eddie is always so accurate... he can guess everything that i m thinking abt....
ok, i sux at being a fren... this is a fact and it will never change....
see u so sad, i cannot do anything.. i wanted to let u cry out but u dun wan... i also dunnoe how to help u... i try to make u happi but i fail... i also dunnoe how to say... jus felt guilty that i cannot help in any way....
Thursday, January 19, 2006
touch
10:06 PMmy sis is good.. she bought mi two tops when she go jb.. wahahaha.. and of cus, salem...
means now i have spare cash.. can buy anna sui de mascara... wahahaha...
today not feeling well... din even present during ideas.. jus click on the ppt nia.. and i went off early.. my teacher allow me to... we nid to improve on our project.. george teo sux...
my cousin came to my hse.. help her dl song de burn into cd...
first day of the week come home so early.... sian sia.. watch 9 pm show.. very touched... almost tear but din.. wahahaha...
nt seeing doc tmr... maybe on sat ba.. hate to see doc.. wahaha.. sian sian sian....
gg shopping on sat with cai yun... wahahaha... looking forward to it ba....
headache, muscle ache, flu, cough and slight fever.. wahahaha... feeling cold now... maybe dying soon =X.. wahahaha...
nth more to blog.. bb.. tc
sick
8:14 AMfinally i m sick..... very xinku now... jus wake up.. nid to pia project... sian....
tuesday, went buy clothes and jogging... and my legs are aching now... cant even slp properly...
ytd, went to do project... somehow find that mi and sk cannot work together... we must every suan each other then can... wahahaha... then went to amk to return jac bag... saw the tourism teacher in the bus..... then pak pool... i realli sux in playing pool... omg! but dun worry angel, i wil master it well and thrash u the next time... wahahahah
Monday, January 16, 2006
crappy
11:42 PMi am very very very tired.... din slp the whole nite cos nid to take care of dardar.. =X wahahaha.. okok, let's be serious... i nid to take care of angel.. scared that she might fall sick...
nv go sch at all.. to mc at poly clinic and then intend to go for the make up test... went to pak pooll and vincent is damm lame and crappy... jus cant win him in anyway.... john join in too..
did i improve my pool skill or jus tyco-ness? i won both angel and vincent... wahahaha... tyco ba.. hehehe....
took 88 and then went to sk and slack.... and all thanks to vincent stupid plan, call angel down and the stupid god is so damm nice to her and suddenly two kitten pop out.. shit man.. feed them with bread and i wanna thanks the both of them for the big surprise they gave me... thanks but no more next time...
i gotta be a lil evil now... nolt to be too kind hearted....
i m diagnose wth emo overdose... lol... nid to find cheaper medication.. the current one is too ex... pay 1k per week but dun think much of a help.. wahahahaha....
gotta slp now.. nite
sad sad sad
11:00 AMtot i wld happy receiving ur msg, but i was wrong... so u dun intend to tell me if i dun msg u?
two weeks... although it's onli two, there are still time spent and all the joys and frustration and stuff like that lor... still tot i can celebrate my bdae with u but u r gg away on that day.... miss ya sia... no pt brooding abt it... we are still able to kip in contact thru email rite? take care....
在那两个礼拜的日子,有欢笑也有悲伤. 是你在我寂寞的日子陪着我度过的.终而言之,谢谢你!!!!
rVWNeEa...
lReAeVrVu
CB
4:08 AMit's never easy to be a good person.. tot of letting u two mit up cos i m alr very guilty but who knows? i shldnt have ask u two come vista point... it's a wrong move...
i m doing wat anne did but i fail.... wtf!! why? m i that stupid? cb lah... knnbccb
and to u, if u realli think that way, then forget it...so wat the fark are u thinking abt now? i wanted to let u two meet up and tok tok but then u r thinking that i trying to break u two up.. ? jus becos i like u b4 then i wanted to break u all up? or is it becos i like angel then dun like the two of u to be tgt? cb lah.. if u wan to think that way, go ahead... i also have nothing to say... if i realli wan u two to break up, would i go waste my phone bill and call angel and persuade her come all the way down here to mit u? wld i spend money on her cab fare jus to let u mit her? would i sacrifice my slp jus to wait for the two of u to finish toking then i can go back home to slp? all this can be done over the phone... fark u la.. and, pass me ur acc number.. i gonna return u ur farking money.. don wish to owe money to ppl like u....
i swear... i wun a kpo again... not ever again to u and angel... trying to be nice and it seems like now i m the bad person.. cb lah.. dulan sia... and i wont BOOK ur angel every now and then so u will have LOTS OF FARKING CHANCE TO MEET HER.. there is nothing to feel guilty abt now.. like wat ur fren stalone say, i shldnt be thinking so much.... still intend to study for my pacc... now no nid le.. no mood at all... my mood is farkingly ruin by U... no one else but U...
Saturday, January 14, 2006
tired tired tired
11:27 PMi m very tired now.. not enuff slp...
ytd did not come home.. acc angel to take pay then sing k... very buay hua.... zhikuan sing very nice.. wahahahaha... and the nugget improve le... better quality and taste....
went to mac to study.. but then after eating, went to see whether still got pool to play anot cos very sian.. in the end, still go back mac... and b4 we realli study, had a so call shower in the toilet... abit crazy but it's... and it is definitely cold.. brrr~~ sit on the table and wanted to study... but then jus fall asleep... and u noe something happen.. whaahaha.. i m jealous at first but after that not at all.. wahahaha
went to thomson road de prata shop to eat breakfast... ate kosong and mutabak.. wahahaha... then had a tok there... then went to bishan take 88 to sk then went home....
i m irritated by my mum... she dun wan giveme money buy new year clothes and expect me to wear those ppolo tee from hang ten which i had bought... it's okie... wear jiu wear lor... any way is sia sway her nt me....
gotta slp soon.. very tired... bb
Thursday, January 12, 2006
tired
11:39 PMi m tired.. veyr very tired... wahaha... i m lacking of slping... no matter how long i slp i still feel tired... so how i wish i can slp forever.. wahahaha...
sian sian sian.. tmr got pacc test.. i m lazy to study.. still think of way to pon.. tmr go protong pasir take pay... haix... sian sian....
burning hot
8:09 AMjus had some spicy food for my breakfast.. and now, my stomach is burning... whahaha.. wonder who go set fire in my stomach.. jus wanna be lame.. pardon me then esp when the weather is freaking cold....
angel, pasieh ar... nv shi xian ur wish to drink the prawn mee soup.. next time ba.. wahahaha
dunnoe why, now have a feeling to spill everything in my heart out.. i need a pair of ears... wahahaha.. but then even if u lend me urs, also no use.l. cos sometimes, it's better to kip things inside ur heart.. maybe will go to a beach one day and carve the things out and bury under the sand.. wahaha.. jus trying to be lame nia.. whaahhaha... sian sian sian....
okokok... gotta to slp now... later nid to wake up to do hsework.... and then nid to study... okok... sian sian sian.... bb
sian
12:04 AMwtf... my mother kip scolding me.. wahahaha... sian sian sian...
and everytime angel come my hse, she will onli gt to see the dark side of my hse.., haix.. bad host.....
dun blame urself... u did not jiao hui mi.. is myself... my fault.. not urs...
am i not a good daughter? to u maybe ba.. cant u jus give mi a lil more freedom... do u noe everytime why i dun wan to go home? i dun wan to listen to ur nagging.... somemore now test period... go study also got wrong meh? wtf!!!
sian sian sian.. luckily nth happen.. if not i also dunnoe how liao...
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
sian...
5:58 AMfeel like K-ing now.,. but given on the current situation, be it money or wat, i cant make it.. haix... feel the onli way for mi tol de-stress is to k ba....
songs lyrics are so unrealistic... they are in some way, but it will nv happen to me in anyway.. not even one song.. cos my situation is complex.. but some song lyrics are jus too fantasy type.. jitao is no link de one...
until now, i onli appreciate some songs due to their lyrics. example of one is bu tong peng you. and some which i cant think of any... wahahaha...
no matter is new song or old song, if u feel smoothing listen to it, it's a good song... dun be afraid to admit that u like old song cos some old song are jus too original and too meaningful.... so wat if u realli like old song, that doesnt makes u an auntie...
but dun close up ur music world with old song. maybe, perhaps, u can open urself to new song. although the orignialty is not at there for song new song, but the lyrics might be meaningful...
now, there are more and more singers. it's alright if they are consistent and come up with more song, but i jus hate those who colme upl with onli 1 album and they forever disappear in the media... it's jus like doing any other things, if u wan to do, then put ur heart to it... why give up half way? it's so sucky...
anyway, it's jus another bull-shitting post for me cos i got nothing better to do now.. bb
shiok
4:19 AMwahaha.. went to sk hse to do project.. hehehe... was late cos i wanted to slp more but then who knows? cihang was alot later than me.. and realli did our project... lied on sk bag.. so shiok.. hehehe.. ate his mother dinner.. not bad lah...
went to sk mit angel and went to tm mit yc and his fren.. all i can say is sian sian sian.... wahahaha... firstly, i dunnoe how to play pool.... then is like realli nth to do.. and they tempt mi to k song .. but when i finally agree, no more K.. wtf!! wahahaha...
went jln kayu.. dun intend to go de.. but then on someone's accord i have no choice.... manage to get wenxia to mit up for awhile.. but then din noe the situation, so paiseh ar... hehehehe....
i cant help but think that i m a spoiler... i m a third party... is like, i make until people cannot mit up and all that.. and then always wanted to leave earli all that.. aiya, i also dunnoe how to say... it's jus a shitty side of me. kill me man....
angel came to my hse... and u noe wat? i m a bad host again.. this will neever change.. never ever... wahahaha....
sk tmr pratical test.. wahaha.. hope he can pass sia.. i will be bhis first passenger then.. wahahaha..,...
dun feel like gg to sch tomolo.. jus dunnoe why... sian sian sian.. watching vcd nw.. so gtg... bb.. hehehe
Monday, January 09, 2006
real suay
10:08 AMtoday i m jus farking sway... fall down in front of the sch.. all thanks to the barrier... sux man....
went to jln kayu to have breakfast with anggel.. tot of calling xia and qi out cos i m jus outside their hse.. hehehehe... the people working there say i m a big eater and a big smoker.. wtf!! lol...
took 74 to sch.. wanted to slp but jus cant slp.. cos scared take bus will overstop.. hahaha... later still got econs and itab quiz... wtf!!! sian sian sian.. prepare to retake ba...
and angel, u better pass well k? hahhaahaha...
Sunday, January 08, 2006
back home
9:06 AMjus reach home not long ago.. had my breakfast and it SUX.. wahahaha....
this is gonna be a long blog as i got alot of stuff to say....
tok abt jus now... went to angel hse to study... planing to ke sub paper as nth much went into my mind. my fate will be decided on kelly lim.. if she call me and summarise for me like wat she always did b4 any test, i think i will do well.. if not, here i come sub paper.. wahahaha...
and i found out something. everytime i m with angel, there is always spare cash in my wallet.. dunnoe why sia.. today also the same.. but then eventualli, i din accept cos i think the owner need the money more than me do.. wahahaha...
on the bus jus now, wanted to slp. but jus cant slp.. i m tired but i jus cant sleep... as the bus moves on, my mind satrt to think abt the things in the past. hmmm.. all i can say is i will nv regret wat i did to my fren cos they worth it.. wahaha.. how shld i say? erm, is like ever since we became fren, i m also the one who make them angry.. wahahah.. so i think they wont make me regret doing the things i did for them... heheh...
anne; firstly gotta thank u. u always make time for me when i nid someone to acc me and i always take u for granted.. not forgetting the pacc incident, i was very touch. at the time, i din appreciate it but now i realli do.. everything when i look for u when i encouter some problems, no matter how busy or stress u are, u will take the effort to listen to me tok and slove my problems. thanks for all ur accompany and time spend on me.. hehehe...
angel; we often see each other in sch so that nth much i can write here. is like, u always acc me no matter wat.. in sch also acc mi, after sch also acc me.. and i have to thank u cos if not, i wldnt know ur classmate and then i think i wun be here.. wahahaha... blame it on my stupidness sometime when i say things to hurt u. maybe i jus dunnoe how to think b4 i tok.. hmm, anyway, thanks for everything.. and dun always stuff money into my wallet..
i kinda miss ms chua... too bad that i have lost my phone.. i mus try ways to contact her back.. afterall, she is like a fren to me.. hehehe...
i can still remember the first time i wore a dress out.. it was during when i was sec one... going for dong dong chiang concert... whahahaha... it was weiting who dress me up.. hehehe.. i m a failure in being a women ba.. cos i dunnoe how to dress like one... ehehehe..
now to ytd... the thought of it makes me boil. erm, how shld i say... my itab project is like completed by nad and monica... they are jus over demanding... is like they wanted to prefect the frontpage with every criteria listed but they dunnoe how to do. and they expect me to noe how to do jus by reading notes which all the extra properties are not found inside. i was on the verge on breaking sown ytd when they asked me to stay till 9... but anyway, nad help mi to escape.. if not, think i will be rotting there....
and i found out that noi, angel classmate, also help mi in itab.. wahahaha.. thank her anyway and she wants a treat from me.. but i think she is joking onli.. hehehe....
saw this ver y rude girl on my way home jus now. think that she is gg to get some scholarship reward. but i dun like the way she treat her mother.. she treat her mother as if she was her maid. i admit that i did not treat my mum very good too, but i m sure at least i nv treat her like a maid... sad...
oh ya, my bro also involvess in this... seeing every students have their parent accompanying them, i felt a bit sad for my bro. wonders how he thinks. i wanted to acc him go but he is riding a bicycle to the venue which i dun think i can tag along. my bro also been a smart one but he always say that i m smarter than him.. but i dun think so... it's not a big fark taking double sci and double maths and dnt.. so i think afterall, my bro is the smartest in our family...
it's raining now.. and i want to slp but i jus cant.. y? i also dunnoe.... gg shikai hse this coming tue.. abit excited.. cos wan to see how his hse look like.. hehhee... but then also very sian, cos nid to do project... wahahaha....
and now, i declare i m broke.. i m left with 2 bucks for this month and it's like it's onli the starting of the month.. i shld stick more with angela so that i can dong with 2 dollar for the rest of my month.. hehehe....
dunno is it the oyster i ate ytd or wat.. stomach pain sia... kip running to the toilet.... sux man
Friday, January 06, 2006
rushing
6:55 AMi jus reach home and i gonna leave my hse soon.. wahahaha.. gotta go sch man....
ytd, went to k... sing the shan hu hai for dunnoe how many times.. jus to get it perfect.. i think i can sing xin xiao qi song very nice.. wahahaha.. angel is gonna puke when she see this...
and dunnoe why, end up in sk again.. went to punggol to eat so call super then went to angel hse slack... very sian.. nth to do... then very tired.... jitao leave her hse b4 i realli fall asleep.. whaahahaha... wanted to get breakfast but kelly is making bread for mi.. so i can save the money up.. whahaha...
and my dad kpkb laio.. due to my hp bill.. will try to cut down.. i onli say try cost i dunnoe how.. wahahaha....
aND i wanna thanks nad and monica for ur help in itab and also not forgeting angel and her fren, wing sing... wahahahaha....
realli gotta go now.. bb
Thursday, January 05, 2006
sleepless nite
2:13 AMtonite gonna be another sleepless nite again... sux man... y no frontpage at home? shit shit shit....
jus reach home.. went to amk to study... eat alot of stuff.... and dunnoe why always got money appear in front of me.... wahahaha
sian ar... tmr got to go sch early to do frontpage.. then after that go pei angel go see doc then rush back to sch again for ideas... sian sian sian...
Monday, January 02, 2006
crying
7:53 PMi feel like crying now... cry everything out......
time and tides wait no man... haix....
i now very luan.. very very luan... sux man....
the malaysia was not that good,.. it jus simply sux.. dun wish to go into detail...