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11:05 PM

black hair

3:38 AM

okok... i want back my black hair... i dunnoe this coolour liao.. so nan kan.... lol... but i jus cant dye back.. my mum will kbkp... lol... maybe tmr ba.... dye le then go study....

i hope my pacc can pass ba.. i want to passs!!!! bank recon sux... lol.. and i think my bal sheet all that i still not very sure... screwed it big tis time... lol...

my leg is in pain.. N i m coughing like nobody biz... lol....

shld i dye back now or shld i wait? i dunnoe... my hair sux... lol....

and i wanna change... to all those people who noe mi, pls tell mi wat u r not satisfied with mi.. and i will try to change..... change for the better of cus....

sian sian sian...

Saturday, February 18, 2006

breakdown

10:42 PM

i m on the verge of breaking down.... i feel like crying!!!!!

woke up and wanted to study... but there is a stupid party downstair that stop mi from studying... cb!!!! how am i gg to study with such disturbance?

i now very xin ku... can anyone jus call mi and hear mi tok.....

why is it that everyone are so relax but i m so tense.....

i have to make a choice now... either pacc or econs.... i cant possbily concentrate on two.... fuck mi...

i dun think that i m in the wrong. but if u insist, then let it be....

fail

5:40 PM

attempt to study but FAIL... lol....

now then i found out that i cant study alone and i cant study with someone who also dunnoe abt the sub..... lol....

shit lah... how many more days left? and how?

i m gg to give it my very best shot... i will try but if realli cannot, then i shall ren ming.... it's all fated...

and if i realli cannot make, i will have to say a very big THANKS to those who ever look down on me....

and of cus, i will have to say a very big SORRY to those who have help mi...

sry angel, dun think can fufil the dreams we have tgt.....

and i got far too much things to say out... anyone wan lend mi his or her ear? =(

i din want to be so negative, but i jus cant help it when i m facing my pacc book and i noe nth abt it.

no mood to study

12:37 AM

i wanted to study but i dunnoe how....

my pacc is stuck... shld i jus make do with wat i noe and concentrate with others sub? but my econs sux too.... and mob... worst... shit lah... people study i also study... but i everything also dunnoe...

knnbccb

thanks for acc mi jus now.... u noe who u r..

Friday, February 17, 2006

1:22 PM

it never paid to be kind hearted.... some people are jus too fucking attitude... she has a very serious attp.... and always say ppl attp... omg!!! trust mi, next time i will not call her along for lunch... yao bu shi kan zai elisa got zai de fen shang, i will nt call her lor....

AND PLS, FOR GOODNESS SAKE, CHANGE UR FUCKING ATTP!!!!

and pls, change ur bra strip.... it's ugly....omg!!!! dun make mi puke...

finally is gonna be 2... lol... lesson starting soon... i love it... lol... it's kinda sian... for everyone's sake, i mus study hard... lol...

and thanks elisa for ur lip gloss... lol....

reflection

10:10 AM

it's kinda funny... i always do wrong things at the wrong time... lol.....

had my crs paper... and i jus anyhow throw in all the arguements and counter arguements....

did my reflection during the paper.... i m glad that my fren celebrate my bdae with mi... so i m gonna change my previos post to a happy version... lol....

went to mit up hm ytd... she gave mi a pooh bear... cute sia... lol... jus abit too skinny... not like mi... plump plump... she bake a cake for mi and becos of her mother, she leave one slicce for me.... lol.. thanks alot.... lol....

had a weird dreams ytd.. lol... if i were to dream like this b4 my every paper, i will be glad man... lol...

Thursday, February 16, 2006

ding tai feng

10:37 PM

i shld be glad that my parents bring mi out for dinner to sort of celebrate my bdaE... but if their real purpose is to sia sway mi, then i think no thanks.....

everything seems to be i m in the wrong... fetch my bro and he was late also my wrong.... eat wat i wanted to eat also my fault.... sit empty seat also my fault... then wat is life then? a bird in a cage with no freedom?

went to ding tai feng to eat with my cousin family and my VERY OWN FAMILY... shldnt be so kind hearted to help my bro buy a tee shirt for him to change... then i wld not hav to sit on the extreme corner and kanna scolded... wtf!! is like, i have no seat then i sit there but then... knnbccb....

wanted to order wat i wan to eat, but they are being taken up by my dad and my bro.. so in the end, i have to order something which i dun like and force myself to eat it....

kinda dulan.... wtf!!! so i gotta thanks u for all the shame u put into me in the public?

gtg.. bb

it sucks,,,

3:25 PM

okok.... i m v happy this year... there are so many people to celebrate my bdae for mi ytd... lol....

went to mit L cos nv go pacc... lol... bought a ring for him and angel and two for myself... lol... actualli he is kind of generous... lol.. we are not that close, but he still give mi present... going out with him is so relax... dun have to pay anything... lol... he foot every bill.. lol...

he is kind la... wat loser punch for pool but he still pay lor... lol.. and he even give mi chances to win... lol.. and of cus, i won.. for the last round... lol.... went to eat pasta... shld be i treating him but then who ask he so gong gong.. so in the end, he treat lor... lol... he gave mi a pack of cig, a lighter, a ring and those treats... lol.... and of cus, i m not so gian ben... i treat him drink bubble tea... =X lol...

went to dhoby to mit up with angel and celeste.. celeste was late... i later... and angel latest.... lol.. went to kbox sing... hahaha..... receive my present from angel... nice one... she is always the one who help mi make my first step into my next stage of life... u noe mi too well... thanks alot... love u lots... lol...

bought myself a cake... cos i have learn to not waste time.. do wat u want and not regret in the end... lol.... but then it's an extra move.... lol... and sing half way jiu go liao... firstly, we have to rush to black b4 12 for my surprise.... and secondly, celeste nid to pia the last train home.... got another present from joanne.. it's a bag... it nice and girly.. lol

was gg to momo at firstly.. but all thanks to terry and sky... so have to land up in black... lol... and at there, i got another surprise.... lol.... another cake....

drink quite fast... wanted to get high earlier and then dance.. i like to move it move it... lol... i dunnoe why, although i noe i dance i until very sucky.. but i still like to dance... lol.... next time, everytime i go clubbing, i mus dance.... okok... the dance floor was empty... not like that time we went... lol... we dance and dance.. then joanne went back.. then we two dancing.. and then got one malay guy came and dance with us... i think we make it too obvious that we are tryin to go over to him and dance so he came over instead...

went over to MOS... but it's more sucky... lol... went in awhile jiu come out liao.... lol... went to mac and eat... omg!! the two of them can be so disgusting when eating.. lol.. one blow bubble into my milo and the other one eat like no tmr and mix up the curry sauce with chilli and mayonise.... omg!!...

went back to black.. this time no one was drinking.. i drank... lol.. went to the dance floor... lol... and funny stuff happen... lol... it's kinda of disgusting... lol....

end le jiu went to angel hse... and my hp drop... lol.. when i retrieve it, bb... lol.... but as long as my sim card is there can liao... lol... angel kanna scolding frm her dad and i was like so scared that he will scold mi.. lol... erm, i think he is trying to scold mi but at the same time, he is smiling to mi.. lol.... i try not to be on his side but the way he say is like i also cant stand on angel's side... so i have decided to stand stong on my own... lol...

to avoid more conflict and all that, i left her hse... went to her hse void deck to slack... lol... wanted to smoke but no cig... and if i were to buy, i cldnt take a cab home... but luckily i din buy... cos when i was awake, i felt a bit nausea.... and all i want was take cab home... so i took the money and took cab home.. lol....

and when i reach home, of cus, slp.... lol...

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

happi birthday to me

12:30 AM

okok, jus reach home... lol....

went almost the whole singapore to find my stuff.... onli sembawang have,,, so tmr i nid to make a trip to sembawang... lol

initially, celeste ps mi... but still mit up in the end... this time nv tok much... as there was some interruption... lol... we slack at a park and sing.... lol... she say my voice got a bit like jolin... lol.... hahaha... happy sia....

no place to go so went home in the end... lol... vincent called abit late... if he were to call mi earlier, i might still be in hougang....

was very touch by a few people... but the most impressive one is from angel... lol..... but still can be improve... lol....

tmr gg to k with celeste and angel... lol.... hope that i will recover tmr so that can sing properly... lol.....

last be not least:
~happy birthday to me!!!~

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

5:11 PM

i nid to get out soon but have yet find ppl to go out with mi... lol... kinda sian lor........

woke up with no voice... but now better liao... my aunt came and visit mi... and it's kinda pain.... sian....

today v day... go anywhere also crowded... lol... where can i go? quick.. help mi think... lol...

very sick

12:01 AM

i guess i m very sick this time....

my eyes are painful... i rub until the skin ----.. i also dunnoe hw to say....

i having running nose.... my nose are running away from me....

i m coughing like hell and i see blood... omg!!!!

my chest is pain now.... the pain kip changing places like young kids playing hide and seek...

and something is definitely wrong with mi... i dunnoe wat to say.... pls kill me....

Monday, February 13, 2006

celeste is back!!!

10:00 PM

sian sian sian.....

access is over... okok... dunnoe whether will pass anot.... but hope so ba....

went to orchards after paper.... was kinda sian so my face was abit black... everyone is shopping for present, but i have nth to shop for.. lol...sorry if i spoil u guys mood....

i wan a valentine.... i wan the stalk of poooh bear... lol.... sian sian sian.... can send a guy to mi now asap.. lol...

celeste is back... she called mi... lol... wed she is going too.. but then i dun have any mood to go....

i noe i shld appreciate it but then i jus cannot acccept it... u r in nid of money... dun waste money... u buy le also no use... i also weun use... lol.... kip it for ur own use k?> lol...

i hate men... esp those old one.. fuck la... very idiotic lor.. i have no mood to tok abt it... cb man... the thinking is bad.. it's a nightmare.. how i wish i can kill all the guys in the world...

Sunday, February 12, 2006

king kong

10:05 PM

ok, i starting to fall in love with king kong... lol.. hehehe... he is so man and so shuai and so all that.... he will be the guy to protect mi from anything... he is nice... although he is extinct, i will wei le ta shou gua... lol

okok.. i m sleepy at the moment... access is tmr... and yet i noe nothing... lol... noi, i have to depend on u le... lol....

3 more days to my bdae... i m not trying to hao lian or hint for present... i think i hv grow up... i dunn wanna any present for this year..... wishes will do... and i m not going to accept any... so people, dun buy for mi... i know i m little thick skin to say this but then jus in case u wanna buy for mi, u can save up the money for ur own use.... to all those that i have ask present from, i am onli jk nia.. so dun take it tooooooo serious... lol....

kinda broke now... lol... must start to find work then got money to spend... lol....

exam are coming real soon.. it's kind of sucky... lol... i m not in the mood to study anything... can some one jus kill mi... i dun wanna live anymore.... fuck it....

finally

4:14 PM

so many days nv blog.... felt so xinku... lol....

fri nite;
went to angel hse... inted to study pacc... but then bu zhi bu jue fall aslp liao... lol. so in the end also n study... but her mum's beehoon is nice... paiseh ar, kope ur beehoon and eat... lol...it was the first time i slp at ppl hse until so late... lol... but at least her parent wont mind... and i tot that their parents wld hate mi but then i have been thinking too much.. lol... and i m guilty abt wat had happen to his dad..... lol...

woke up it's like alr 3.30... but i still very tired... u can say that i m a pig.. i dun mind.. lol... suddenly v hiao and take her make up stuff to use... lol... have a bath then she acc mi go home cos i gg to pei her to black...

sat nite;
like i say, went to black.. it was very messy at first... but then everything is fine after that... black gives mi a feeling that i also dunnoe how to say.. it's like u can make u go rite to the dance floor str8 away... lol... actualli can dance earlier de, but then due to some problem, bo bian but then look after stuff..

saw joyce and selina... lol...

and so the whole nite is dancing and drinking... it's nice and fun... lol.. but then srsly, my dancing sux... lol... angel fren dance very good... and something i found alike between clyve and roy is that they dance machiam like take drugs..... lol....

i felt like a nanny... lo... have to take care of two drunkens... lol.. and i dunnoe them completely... and is like they are so out of ctrl... lol

and when they go dance and i was thr smoking, there are some fearful things happening.. lol.. i was very scared at that time... i will nt forget wat had happen to me b4.. it's like so scary.... guys are idiots!!

after that went to mac to eat... and slack awhile then the 3 of them go home... pei ruben walk ard the streets... lol... tok tok tok... interesting.. okok... when he tell mi things, i was so surprise. is like u wun noe that he is that type of person until he tell u personally.. lol... he has a blog!!.. lol... wahahaha... over all, he is cute... hehe... esp at the dance floor... lol...

roy is charming... lol... the more u look at him, the more u are being memerise by him.,.. lol... he is damm cool... firstly, u will fall in love with his eyes, and then u will slowly realise that his eyes can kill... lol.... omg!!!! faints....

and when i m slping today, got1 retarded person come kajiao mi... damm idiot lor... fuck man.. nearly spoilt my mp3.... knnbccccb..... fuck

Friday, February 10, 2006

quarrel

4:00 PM

actualli i m tired but i am also nt tired.. lol...

i think i din do my best for crs jus now..... i screwed up things... i and hate the way u look at mi be it b4 the presentation or after the presentation... and i m not gg to get pissed off over it cos i have alr learn not to bother abt u all liao...

regret wearing shorts today.. it feels abit so weird.. lol... is like i kip thinking gt people using that eyes to look at me...

thanks siew lian for inviting mi to join u for ur lunch today... lol...

erm, i have learnt alot from ytd incident.... but hope u will trust mi again like wat u did.......

signing off...

Thursday, February 09, 2006

Faint

5:40 PM

I am a little bit of loneliness a little bit of disregard.
Handful of complaints but I cant help the fact thateveryone can see these scars.
I am what i want you to want what I want you to feel.
But it's like no matter what i do, i can't convince you,to just believe this is real.
So I let go, watching you, turn your back like you always do.
Face away and pretend that i'm not
But i'll be here 'cause you're all that I got.

I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
I am a little bit insecure a little unconfident
Cause you don't understand
I do what I can but sometimes I don't make sense
I am what you never what to say
but i've neverhad a doubt
It's like no matter what I do
I can't convince you for once
just to hear me out
So I let go watching you turn your back like you alwaysdo
Face away and pretend that i'm not
But i'll be here cause you're all that I got

NOHEAR ME OUT NOW
YOU'RE GONNA LISTEN TO ME
LIKE IT OR NOT
RIGHT NOWHEAR ME OUT NOW
YOU'RE GONNA LISTEN TO ME LIKE IT OR NOT
RIGHT NOW
I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored

sian

4:01 PM

sch is nv a happy place for mi...... it's a fuck up place.... with lots of fuck up people....

don expect me to noe anything when u nv tell mi abt it.. i m not god.... wtf? kinda pissed off... sian sian sian..... it's either u tell mi now or i dun do anything abt it.... and dun blame mi when i do nothing cos it's jus simply ur fault and not mine....

i din noe that u r a sabo seng... wtf... imagine how many personal stuff i have tell u and how the hell can i noe how much u told other ppl abt it? i have always kip ur problems n stuff to myself... but wat do i get in return?

i m hungry.. but i m jus too poor to afford food... i nid to save.... svae up for many things... this is so shitty when u have plans ahead of u but u jus can go do it cos u have no cash... wtf!!!!

i m a emo freak... wtf man... exam coming up but i have no mood to study at all.... dun even feel like touching the books and all that... fuck it.... i dun intend to study liao.... fail also like this, pass also like this... so wat if u can do very well in ur studies but ur life is simply a sucky one?

srsly i think i have a few frens onli... i have no more frens other than those who i have been sticking ard all the time.. felt like a loser... wtf......

leave mi alone... i nid to start thinking now....

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

poems

11:21 PM

Once you were here.
Then you were gone.
Nothing has been the same.
From that moment on.
Here comes the darkness.
To drive away the sun.
Where are you?
When the lonely comes.
Along with the darkness.
The sadness moves right in.
I don't know why.
I can't be happy again.
Days turn into weeks.
Weeks became years.
Still the lonely finds me.
Drowning in my tears.
I have no place to run.
When the lonely comes.
Night after night.
It won't let me be.
The lonely is a monster.
That feeds on misery.
I don't know how to stop it.
Or even where it's from.
All I know, is where I'll be.
When the lonely comes...

LOVE IS PAIN

lack of sleep

11:07 PM

i wanted to blog but i forgotten...

changed my blogskins.....

i m very tired... although i slpt during noon time but i still thinks that i dun have enuff slp..... it's so nice to slp.. so i go for stats lect tmr? sian sian sian....

ok, i made a wrong move on 6 feb.... i shld have done that... i m now regretting... fark man....

and when i think abt the artist network thingy, i jus cant help but thinking abt the shuai ge.. lol.. he is so damm cool... when he was talking abt the uan thingy, i was starring at him right from the start... lol...

today's cheryl bdae.... wasted.. nv go chiong.. sum more tmr so late sch.. lol..... maybe if she call mi now and ask mi go down, i will not hesitate.. lol....

i m so fucking broke... sian ar.... why m i so poor? lol... i wan more money.. maybe i shld start buying 4d.. lol... i dreamt of 4 numbers today... lol....

i wanna tok more abt ytd stuff.. but then i think is realli meaningless to blog abt it now... if u wanna noe, u can come ask mi... i will be more willing to say it.. lol..

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

11:49 PM

I've big dreams wif tiny efforts
I'm ambitious but downright lazy
I need 2 b rich but I'm a spender
I read a lot but I'm not resourceful
I like bein honest but tat dont work in dog-eat-dog's world
I'm tired wif my obesity yet doin nothin 2 it
I love music+dance but discos r bad
I'm sick of studying but tat bears my furute
I wish 2 see the world but my pocket aint got penny
I think i m smart but I'm slow and stupid
I'm humorous but I do dry joke
I lament but somehow life gets goin as well..

time stops now

11:45 PM

can the time stops now? i still have many stuff haven complete... i haven bath, haven eat medicine, haven do crs, haven do ideas... and i have completely no idea on how abt gg to do ideas.......


i make a fool of myself.... and u are someone who dun noe how to kip secret.....


went to the artist network thingy.. tempted but not joining.... no money at all... see how first.....


i hate u and i m telling u right now... I HATE YOU!!!!


i need money... why is it that i m so broke and everything is so ex? wtf!!!! knnbccb....


let mi cont tmr... not in the mood now.. jus very dulan whenever i think of wat happen today....

bored

3:28 PM

i have until 10 tonite to waste... i can onli go home at ten... i so bored... i m rotting soon.... omg!!!! sian sian sian


i m kinda pissed off with my classmate abt the stuff they say... backstabbers.... idiot.. farkers...

reinforcement

9:21 AM

if u had read the previous post, ignore it.... read this one... if u read alr, also dun care.....


went to kbox ytd.... things happen altogether when u r not feeling good.... crs projects and of cus other stuff.... was feeling down... angel try to make mi high but i cant.... maybe i m think a lil too much.....


i noe i smoke alot ytd and i made u pissed off......


people drink and get high but the more i drink the lower i m... wtf? tot that when i get high, i can stop thinking abt these irritating stuff... but i was wrong.... i tend to think more.. and so in the end, i broke down......


i hate people to think that i am a bitch all that... wtf is this? i m not those sui bian de girl lor.... wtf? I AM A VIRGIN.... but if dun wanna believe then forget it... i also nv force u... u can jus go tell anyone abt it... as long as my conscience is clear, i wun give a damm....


and u.. why mus u purposely say stuff i dunn wan to noe? u sux man..... idiot....


lastly is u, why must u treat mi like this? cant u jus tok to me nicely? can u treat mi like how u treat cheryl? can u dun so attp mi? i very disappointed when u tok to me in that way... but wat can i do? fark it...


actualli i dun nid to be like this... blame it on my stupidness to like u.... i shldnt have like u.... shit it......


tot that i can rest peacefully at home. but then when i was sleeping, my sis woke mi up... idiot idiot.... her fren big lah? jus becos i dun let her have the room, she go dunnoe tell wat shit to her fren.... she thinks that i cannot hear but i m not deaf.....


went down to the hse void deck... wanted to find people out but everyone seems to be busy..... maybe it's a good thing so that i can be alone and do some reflection.... but i do was smoke.. nth but smoke....


exam coming... and access test is on monday.. but i noe nth abt access.... i m lazy to learn.... sux man....


now in stats class... i choose not to sit beside him... and so, cheryl took over the seat..... i flunk my test!!!


i m very tired now... gg to slp... bb

sober

1:13 AM

i m 'awake' now......


i m stupid... i hate the person of teaching wat is like but nv teach mi how to like.... why cant i be like those kids so naive? they are so simple minded.... they dun have to think so much abt bgr stuff.... why cant the world do without bgr?


went to kbox to vent my frustration juuss now.. my classmate simply sux.....


i m a VIRGIN... i m not those type of sui bian girls that u think.... think it in anyway u like,,, i dunn wanna give a damn about it.....


i hate u... i hate u to be present in my life.... why mus u make me like u.. actualli is also not ur fault... fuck man... and why cant u tok nicely to mi like how to tok to cheryl? attp!!!!


gg off...

Monday, February 06, 2006

bored

10:15 AM

i feel like blogging now but then i have nth to blog abt... so bear with my nonsense for the timg being.. jus wan blog abt wat is in my mind...


so i have been a fool since last year... lol.... i also dunnoe how to phrase it.....


i felt so silly and useless.. dun ask mi why but i jus felt this way.....


i have been an unfilial daughter ever since i grad from sec sch.... my mother alr dui wo xin fei yi leng....


i m stupid.... i shld have be a lil smarter and tactful....... lol


i m lazy... lo... always pon sch and then nv do homework... always ask other people to do for mi... lol


i always think that i m very capable... but in fact, i m wrong... capable my foot... lol


i know when to save and when to spend accordingly... lol.... things that i should spend, i spend and vice versa... lol.... at least, this is the onli good point i got... i m proud of it....


but then i dun regret some of the things that i have done.. be it good or bad... at least i noe that i have found great frens....


dun expect something in return everytime u do something for people.... u want, u either do it willingly or u dun do at all... lol... dun do alr niam niam niam.....


exams are coming up.... next week revision week.. but then i think i got to come back to sch.... sian sian sian


i m broke and very very broke.... clubbing on next sat... gonna open bottle? i dunnoe... lol... all this will depends on lynne and my sis... lol... sian sian sian....


my house on fire ytd... my dad was scalded while putting off the fire... lol.. sian sian sian... and now all blame my dad for not buying the fire insurance.....


i had onli one week left with u.... i gotta treasure it... lol... let's spend this week to the fullest ba... lol...

Sunday, February 05, 2006

dulan

11:40 PM

went to yishun see doc then slack alot b4 coming home...lol falling in love with RnB.. it's so nice....


now i wanna dedicate this blog to 4 people... dunnoe whether u all will read my blog anot, but then i still wan to rant it out....


firstly, i gotta thank you from saving me b4 i fall into the hole... lol.... thanks ar...

secondly is U, din know that u are a hypocrite.. tot u would appreciate the things i did for u... in anyway that i have help u.... and yet, u backstabb mi.... idiot... dun u feel that u r an idiot? realli regret trusting u.... FO...

thirdly, and is YOU, u r a bitch.....tot that u would support mi and help mi but i was wrong.... pls leh, we are fren. din noe that u see stead more impt than fren.. wtf is this? have u ever think abt the things that i have done for u? ur r hurting mi too much.... i m dissapointed.... have u ever treat me as ur fren? u always like to ask mi to stuff to show that u care.. but i think a r jus too KPO...


lastly, is NI, why not jus tell mi that u hate mi in front of mi when i ask u? why must u like say no lah wat shit when u go tell ur gf that u hate mi? u r a loser. zhi bei rite? wtf.... go learn how to be a better stead if u feel inferior... cbk

Saturday, February 04, 2006

dream

4:36 PM

had a weird dream jus now... i cant believe that i had this dream....

so wat m i thinking now? i cried for him.... it was like so real life... maybe this will happen in my life but i dun wish to.... i rather jus take the ending than the whole thing...

it's kinda complicated now.... uncertainty... this feeling sux.. but if i realli get desperate, i will go do anything that is unexpected.. lol

clubbing

7:41 AM

okok.. i am home... for e time being, i m 21 year... lol


went to liquid kitchen and waited for the two ladies to off work.. jitao everyone ps mi except yunn miin... lol.. yunn miin is not lucky.... regreted calling her... cos, she quarrel with her bf becos of mi... m i a jinx or smthing? i always make couples quarrel becos of me....


eddie came down too.... went to watch huo yuan jia... i tot it was a boring show but then when u reaali watch it, it's a inspiring movie.... miss the ending... intend to watch again.. anyone wan go watch can call mi along... provided that u r single.. lol... eddie, ps ar... u shld noe wat i mean...


went to clubbing... devil & mu.... ex sia... 12 for entry.... regret gg devil... now got a phobia... shall not tok too much abt it jus in case my sis read my blog... dance of cus.. but i realli sux at dancing... gotta learn from cihang.. lol.... saw kelvin..... he look nicer in his new hairstyle....


went to mac to slack and took a cab home.... today spend all my ang bao money liao.. left with ten bucks.. i m so poor... gotta collect more angbaos liao....


call my di er chun but then he nv pick up my phone... shall give him one tight slap if i happen to mit up with him... lol....


shld i ask him out or shld i not.. there is nothing we can do... sian....


ok... i gotta straighten out my thinking.... u will be the last one... after that, there shld be no more... it's kind of torturing when ur fav food is in front of u and u cant eat it.... i also dunnoe how to say it... haix.... it's so different now... wat can i do? there is nothing i can do...... jus let the food be eaten by other ppl ba.....

Thursday, February 02, 2006

screwed

10:52 PM

ok, now i noe the seriousness of skipping lecture liaO.. a bit regret.... now i have damm lots of notes to copy... sian sian sian....

luckily crs presentation is not tomolo... if nt, i can jus go bonkers..... crs test is coming... i think will flunk it.....

now is like from wat i copying, i can see my result slip.. lol... is like pacc-f, econs-p, stats-c, mob-p... lol... jialat jialat....

can someone jus kill mi now? feeling so stressful.... is like cny jus over and i have god damm lots of stuff to do... shit shit shit...

i screwed my ideas presentation today.. and i think that's why the fucking george thinks that we have solme internal conflict... he is a mother fucker... nb!!! tok without putting ppl feelings into consideration.. wtf is this?

i know i have been taking advantages of u... but other than u, i dunnoe who i can turn to... i shld appreciate for the things u do for mi but yet, i take it for granted... i noe sorry also no use but i realli duno wat to say... u dun trust mi cos of the smoking thing and p[on sch all these.. and u r not the first person who dun trust mi... but everytime i say something, i try to do it.. it's not like i dun wanna do it, but sometimes i might jus forget and i dun have the determination to do it... and my actions are making u beiong irritated... i shld be a lil more responsible for everything i do and say... sometimes, if u realli feel like, u can give mi one tight slap or wat... i dun mind.... i realli wan to say sorry.... i will try, try to change.. when u read this, tag at my tagboard or sms mi or msg mi or smthing.... i m sry...

gotta tgo copy my notes liao.. bb

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

back home

11:00 PM

i m finally back home... but with no voice....

all i can describe abt msia is sian..... gamble all day long and that's all. smoke also nid to tou tou mo mo... lucky there is weilong and angel to pei mi... hehe...

first time gamble lost money... wahaha.. but i think out of my silibings, i got the most ang bao so it's okie... lol....

my mother suspect mi of smoking again.. cos help wl buy cig then put in the car... but then i deny.. so it's okie....

went to take mc... one mc 6 dollar... so ex.... and i regret not coming back ytd... is like, if i were to come back ytd, i wld have save 300 bucks and i cld do my proj....

involve in a car accident ytd..... hit and run.... bumper spoil... spot light spoil... skit also spoil.... fark man...... idiotic....

grow fatter... ate supper... fat fat fat... sian sian sian.....

brought home a karaoke system... like those fantasie de... but then the mtv all not original one... it's sucks... waste money... and now, my bro and sis is kill chicken... whaahahaha....

gotta go copy pacc notes liao.. bb