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tired... work work work... but good, can earn money....
went to my GOODIE FREN and slp ytd... lol.... slp in peace.. wanted to go home b4 i go for work but i m jus too tired.. and i skip my medication... and now i noe the consequences of skipping medication... lol....
work was fun but except for some xiao ren.... after he lecture me, i told myself that if i realli cry like that, i m useless... and true enuff, .... lol
my name is stephanie!! wtf... thanks papa for being so thoughtful hor... lol....
lousia is kind enuff to send me back to woodlands... lol... if nt, i think i dun need to slp liao...... crap alot jus now... lol.... too bad someone has a BESTIE FREN so i cannot be hers... lol.....
ethan is fucking lame... lol... disney on ice, starwars... lol... but some i still catch no balls... hahaha....
nt gg to be a chef for today... hahaha.. no lesson... lol... gonna do some experience... hehehe...
later working again.... sian.....
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
seriously lacking of slp.... haven been blogging for a few days due to work... shall make it a short one so that i can go and slp....
work ytd... now then i see the picture.... serene is a good manage while derrick likes to kpkb.... we always thought the other way round.... lol... was shocked that serene allow me to sing and eat and smoke... lol.... broke record.. she nv scold me for the day... lol... hahaha... merry xmas.... lol....
ask angel down to pei me.... and yet she kanna dua by derrick... mr bean is a pig.... slp until so late then wake up... lol..... it's a wrong move!!!!
ok, i need to find a course to improve on being a good fren.... i always thought that i m acceptable until wat happen ytd, i m greatly disappointed in myself.... i m jus a sucker....
so wat is fren? this word is realli very sucky... can someone define for me?
life is short and unpredictable... do wat u feel like doing while u can if not, u will regret....
todaY is sk and god bro bdae.. wish them two happy happy happy bdae...
Friday, March 24, 2006
went to angel class chalet... lol... fun yet funny.... a fight nearly occurred... lol... and noi, dun think too much k? everything is fine... watch 40 year old virgin..... and i left my earphones there... i have no earphone... it's like having a mp3 is as good as without one... lol.... there were lots of food but then we din eat much too... after that movie, grab a bite at mac as we were realli hungry.... and we are short of cash... something lame happen... kinda sia sway... lol....
play dai dee with them.... with lots of craps..... irene is cute and funny... sharon is good at cursing.... slack there till 6 plus b4 we took a cab home... stomachache and lao sai... lol.....
din noe that nid so much money to enrol for driving lesson... i think i will go enrol after around ten days ba... lol.. and i m gonna save up money now.... things to do to save up money:
1) work more
2) stop buying cigs after today
3) no more supper after work
4)take public transport instead of cabs
5)hang out ard places where no money is needed
6)have meals at home b4 gg out
these are the few things i will do but then i dunnoe i can do it anot esp 2 n 3 n 5... lol.... but nevertheless, i will try... lol... and i think i will go be a tutor... earn more money... and if my work shedule for lollipop is realli nt that pack, i will go find another job..... i srsly in need of money now...
and my chest is damm painful... i cannot stand it... it hurts like hell... wat is happening to me? shit la.... dying soon man... lol
Thursday, March 23, 2006
i manage to get into year 2... shld i be happy or shld i be sad? i m tired of studying in poly.. and i know that the year 2 option that i will get into is definitely not the one i wanted the most....
lack of slp and v tired.. but i jus cant slp... went to 888 jus now to have supper.... saw the girl working in friend's place... luckily she dun recognise us... if not, we will be killed... lol....
my dad jus scolded me.. and i hate it... and pls, next time, settle things b/w u and ur husband first before asking me to do anything...
finally persuade someone to pei me go kao che... lol... at least i m nt alone....
and pls, if u treat me as ur goodie fren cum mother cum grand daughter, dun kip talking abt money... and dun kip saying that u want to return me the money... i am no in need of money... and it's not ur fault that i hav onli 1000 left in my acc... and even if u return me the money, i will jus spend it away... so i rather u kip it and use on stuff u want to buy.... remember this:
Shopping is secondary but returning me the money is tertiary!!!!
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
shit.... fuck... result is out.. yet i dun hav the courage to check... everybody seems satisfied with their result, they din fail any module and their gpa are high esp jiahui..... i await for this moment for long and even loss my slp but i nv check when when alarm sound at 8.30... omg!!! how how how?
i think i shld go hav my slp now... wait till they send my result slip to mi... lol... or, any kind soul is willing to check for me? lol....
will i fail any module? will i be able to make it to year 2?
aiya, i think i shldnt care so much... lol.. enjoy and relax first... result and studies come later.....
and i shld be happy that my mother is gg to sponsor mi for driving lessokn... yahoo... i m gg to drive soon.... ah ma, next time dun nid take mrt liao... i send u... lol
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
ytd was not my day... fuck it...
go out then raining heavily... and got drenched.....
late for work for 7 min... shit... and once go in see the serene attp face, worst lor.. shit.... there was no mitting... hope they are paying us frm 7 onwards... i nid to go find another job... lol... if not, i will die.... this job cannot earn money lor... hahaha...
was busy like hell..... din smoke much too.... lol... and thanks regina for the cup noodle and ur chilli power sia... lol...
customer did not foot the bill and leave and i dun even noe.. and i was playing card games with them... luckily they nv ask mi pay... lol...
looking forward to fri... lol.. my god daddy birthday... lol.. i will slack like hell and i finally can work upstair... lol.. hope angel will also go up and work... hahahaha....
din hav supper ytd... went home straight after work... my fillet-o-fish with extra chesse!!! lol....
Sunday, March 19, 2006
i wan to blog but i m too tired to blog.... shall make it short and simple.....
angel came to my hse.... slp, watch dou yu then she went to mit xm....
shld nt hav go for supper ytd.... waste money.... spend a total of 60 dollar ytd... sian..... din even finish all the food...
went to buy durian jus now.,.. got a great deal.. daughter, let mi tell u this, ur mama still got meili de hor.... 12 per packet and i onli hav to pay ten for 2 packet... lol... and i finish up my money all on durian... lol....
tmr working... woohoo... hope will be nice ba... lol
i m freaking tired.. slping soon...
angel, paiseh ar... forgot to record for u.... i realli forget abt it... paiseh.. i help u find the vcd...
Saturday, March 18, 2006
my blog will most probably be the alomost the same as angel but then there are some things i gotta to add... lol...
first day of work not bad.. kanna diao by the serene and customer... not bad for the first day, i got a god daddy, god mummy, god father and a god uncle... and i also gt a smoking khaki and a clubbing khaki and last but not least a 'bf'....
work quite slack.... but fun... although cannot smoke and drink and sing, but do u think i care? lol... i think i m very rebelious... lol... i think i can go join superstar.. =X but people complain say i ugly lei... bo bian.... my god mummy try to an wei mi sia... lol...
went to hav late dinner after work and then pak pool... kan bu chu regina is so damm fucking pissed of with serene... lol.... hahahaha... and i m not v fierce... lol... serene is worst.....
and thanks for consoling me and cheer mi up when i was working ytd... =) i appreciated it...
gg to watch movie with my ah ma... lol... it's been quite sometime i last watch movie with her... woohoo..... ah ma rox!!!! lol...
Thursday, March 16, 2006
i m being blackmail.....,
dun fucking noe my secrets and keep threatning me to tell my mother so that u wun hav to return mi my money...
and dun always mention the word germany and dun fucking tell mi wat are gd guys wat are not.....
i m kinda pissed now.... staying at home will jus make mi explode... sux la....
kanna dua
1:47 AMok, i kanna dua by that fucking raja.... and now i m in cxm hse.. everything jus feel so weird...
work half way today and we jus went off... we see that there is no money in the job... and our main aim now is to earn money.... wasted cab fare for two days.... shit....
went for job interview and was late in mitting raja.... it's not my fault... who ask him to come out so early.. he waited for us for ard 2.5 hrs... and i think that is not very long....
he followed me home to take his stuff.. he waited for me and i was taking my own sweet time to bath and everything.. and i kanna dua.. shit...
wonder wat the two of them doing inside.... i think i shld leave now... dun think angel is gg home too...... see how first... be alone outside is better than being here... lol... i can smoke as many fucking stick as i like and i wun feel so uneasy..... but anyway, i have to thank u for allowing me to come to ur hse.....
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
bitch
12:28 AMi have no rights to say abt how bitchy some one is... i m worst than them... so i think i shall shut myself up....
alot of things have been happening for the past few days... i dun wish to talk abt it becos i m lazy and i wish i could forget them all..... i commit a mistake again and again.. maybe i was greedy? ok, i shall admit that i m v greedy... but at that time, i was more on the pissed of side then greedy....
went to work today and it totally sux.... i m sick of it.. hardwork doesnt pay off... u see, is like when u r doing so much stuff, u jus cant get a Q... but people slacking there can get one so easily....
mit up with raja to sort things out with him... is he a god or is he a wat? he seems like to be capable of seeing thru my mind is thinking abt... he dun find mi a bitch and it's like wat he predicted was all so accurate.... he is definitely nicer than the bastard.....
there is a fucking big problem with mi now... i tried to slove it, using different method but to no avail... fuck it man... am i really so lousy? am i realli a losser? am i realli that sucky? so why am i still in this world? i think i m a hopeless case... may the police come and catch mi and put mi in jail....
angel, i m sorry abt wat had happen... i think u shld start be wary of me now... u saw the dark side of me.. i believe...
sometimes, i realli dunnoe wat i m thinking abt man... srsly... i think i m cheap and low class... even if i ask for another chance, i might jus hurt u in the end... i m a fucking bad friend... shittt.... i noe i make u sick and i noe u r sick of me... i always drag u down and escort free... i m a fucking cb....
Saturday, March 11, 2006
went for job hunting ytd... manage to get this so called very nice job... but today nv go work cos very tired... lol....
after the job hunting, went to suki dunnoe wat shit to eat our dinner.... nice and cheap.. when we come out, we smell of you yan wei... lol... went to pak pool awhile b4 she went to mit xm and i went to mit my classmaTE...
i try not to lose my temper... but if i realli did, i m sorry.... went to bk to sit and chat b4 they realli go home.... anyway, it's over between him and me....
went to mit raja to find sam... and we actualli wanted to watch a movie but then sam's dad called raja.. so raja have to find sam asap.... acc him to his hse to wait for sam.. and then we found out that sam was in malaysia.... ok, there are too much thing to blog and i m too lazy to blog... want to noe? come ask mi....
michelle, raja is interested in u... u can consider him... lol....
Friday, March 10, 2006
sick
5:49 AMi m very sick... sick sick sick... can call mi a sicko in short... lol.... i want to slp but then jus cannot slp... haix... wtf?!! sleep also hard... nb!!!
i m sorry if u find mi relying on u too much.... u r the onli one i can turn to.... my frens are not as steady as u and they are too guai liao... i jus cant go along well with them...
oh god!!! pls get mi a job asap... i dun wan spend time doing nth.... i m wasting my time away... i nid money.. to get a license.... to buy fucking lots of stuff...
omg!! i think my caMP is unsuccessful... but i nid the money... how? who nids a maid for 3 fucking long days can call mi... it's free... jus provide mi a shelter and that's all... lol....
now then i realised that i m kiping too much things to myself and that's why i get so fucking depressed so easily.... i have friends who are willing to hear mi out... but it's like, somethhings are not meant to let people know... and if i reaLLi go and tell my fren abt this, wonder how they will look at me... they might think i m some fucking despo or wat... haix... live sux...
Thursday, March 09, 2006
nose bleed
6:43 PMi was slping half way and i found out that my nose was bleeding... lol.....
i did not give him morning call eventually as i myself couldnt wake up... lol...
there are so many thingsa happening today..... pri sch-mates meeting.... lol... i think i will give it a miss this time... cos i was slping jus now... lol
i nid to buy kelly's present... her bdae is tmr... and i still haven got her anything.... angel, i nid ur help....
i m not gg to mit sam today for either drink or shopping.... make it tmr... tmr can go clubbing... better... lol... but gotta see wat he say first... lol....
i dun wan to be at home tonite.. any kind soul pls ask mi out.... i m very sian... lol....
shiok
7:33 AMjus blog cos i cldnt get to slp as my hair is still wet.. but my head hurts.... ouch!!!
went to phunk bar jus now... did not go terry there as we hav alr promise elisa to go there liao... so bo bian... lol....
elisa is a good dancer... u will be shocked to see her dance... damm freaking nice... lol.... felt so zi bei when dancing... lol... cos i jus cant dance... sux man... lol....
played pool.... and the boss was nice enuff to give us free game... lol... and it all started here...
there was this guy wanted to play pool with angel... and so mi and angel tag team.... lol.. and he play his dubai rule which is so unreasonable.... but we still win... lol.. and he wanted to play with michelle, elisa fren.. and when the game was being play half way, we are told to leave... and so his fren, sam join us....
went to cine to play pool.... elisa went to mit jumali so nv join us... both are rich guys sia.. and they are good guys of cus... sam is encouraging... not matter how lousy i shoot, he will say that it's a good move all that... lol... and they are fucking lame... lol.... and money to them is not a fucking problem... lol... we are like ka-ing his money... and i felt abit bad abt it... lol....
went to mac to eat.. then slack there for a very long time b4 we can finally go home.. and they insist of taking mrt which is so fucking lame... lol.... took a cab home of cus... when they two alight, he called mi.. ask mi lots of stuff.... there are too much things to blog but i jus dunnoe how to phrase it... i scared PEOPLE might think that i m a hongster all that... lol... but nevertheless, i will give it a try like wat u two have said... lol...
gg back to the place is like a ______... cant believe u r so ruthless.... i was jus saying it for fun but u r taking it for real... haix... anyway, it's okie... there is nothing i can do too...
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
pms
2:05 AMi m feeling low suddenly.... maybe i m coming that thing soon... pls dun irritate mi cos i will get irritated easily.... and dun mention PINKSTER this word... it turns mi off... lol....
someone, make mi happi!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
haix
11:34 AMwen shi jie qing wei he wu, zhi jiao ren kao peh kao bu... lol
hahaha.... went to kster for an interview ytd... pay was low... dun intend to work there ba... haha... see how lor.....
went to a so call kopitiam to eat... lol... eat stingray and kangkong... xm join in later..... he was forced to eat the spicy stingray, which i think is not nice, due to some stupid stuff he had said... lol...
went to kster... maange to trick him in... lol... at first, he was unwilling to sing.. but later at least got sing abit... lol... hehehe... and our gui ji bei chuan bang liao... lol.. wasted.... spend so much effort, in the end, nO achievement... lol....
went to jln kayu prata shop... the ORIGINAL jln kayu prata... nb!! onli can eat their plain and mushroom and cheese mutabak... the rest are inedible... lol... went to the park to chat and chill... and then went back to the shop again for some monkey business... not mi, it's her... lol... decided to go to vista park to chill instead....
rch my hse and watch tv for awhile b4 gg there... go there for onli awhile and tok.... ah ma was not feeling well so went home.. jitao pig jiu shi pig.... say when my mother go for work, wake her up.. but then she lai chuang... so decided to wake her up aT 6.30 instead... but see she slp so soundly, forget it... lol
slp for a while and wake up.. all thanks to the standby mattress i have... lol...
now watching tv again... later maybe gg jb.. i dunnoe... lol....
shld i believe in wat u say? i dunnoe.... i hope it's real but i cant help but to think that u r lying to me jus to make me happy. wat will happy to us? kip in contact or break contact again....
Sunday, March 05, 2006
i m not emo
8:47 PMi m not trying to be emo over here... i m happy ever since exam is over.... so noi, and elisa, it's not a sad post.... lol...
was very touched when some one actualli acc mi for breakfast and lunch upon request... lol... and i was shocked too.... she was very steady.... but come to think of it, since when she become so steady? lol... still tot that she might so motive... but then i was paranoid la... lol... i m here to thank her... yeah.. a very big thanks to u...
Thank You!!! =)
i was lucky.. no hsework to do today.... it's not becos of no hsework to do.. it's becos i dun wan to do... lol....
come to think of it, i m the lousiest mother in the world... i cant give u a complete family and i cant give u the best that u wished for... i m poor and hope u will understand yeah...
ok la.. that's alll.... tmr wat event? i dunnoe... lol... see first ba.....
wat is love
4:42 AMthis might be a stupid post to u all but who cares... lol.... was thinking abt this when i was smoking jus nw... and all thanks to zhihong for mi to go so into details... lol
receive a email long time ago... no one heart is perfect... cos u hav to give a part of ur own heart to others to show that u love... and if u r lucky, u might get back anot part from that someone.... and if u dun give, u r selfish... and so, i was naive and try to get my heart to others... lol....
maybe i dunnoe wat is love... i used to like every guy in my sec sch classes jus in case any one of them like mi back... but no one is willing to give me a part of their heart.... u see wat i mean? lol...
crush, like and love... so how do people actualli differentiate them from one another? there was this another email abt love and like.. it says that, when u see the person u LIKE crying, u might jus walk up to him and console him... but when u see the person u LOVE crying, u will cry with them... is this true? there are a few occassion where i cry with my frens.. so that means that i LOVE them and not LIKE them?
so how many people do i actually like, love and hae a crush on? it's kinda of stupid but i think i LIKED every guy that appear in my life b4... like wz,de, tc,ks,lw,cy,sm,ad,ek and many more.... and i think i m kinda of bitchy to do this...
but anyway, it's not a must to be in a r/s to live ur life to the fullest.... scolded beck jus now and we broke off contact... lol...
load a song into my blog... it's an old song.. but i think is nice... lol... and celeste went to hk le... she bluff mi.. nv call mi... lol... that's all ba..
Saturday, March 04, 2006
nicest slp
7:39 PMthe first time ever, i can slp at my hse from 9.30 to 7.. lol... and of cos there were disturbance.. but who cares.... jus slp... lol....
walk to atm then found out that i dun have atm card.. walk all the way to the bus stop and wait for my bus... since i wanted to save money, so it's okie... receive a weird message from someone.... hmm.... too polite liao.. nt use to it... i wan back my old daughter and not the new one.... since i m ur 'mother', u dun owe mi anything and dun kip saying that wat u owe mi alot or owe mi big time..... dun be a silly fish.... if u realli wanna repay, be my daughter forever lor... u shld noe wat i mean rite? actually ur mother also treat u very good de... lol....
there is a price to pay when u wanna slp.... and u wake up, u will loads of housework to do... and i found out that i dun have cig with mi.. it will be a lonely day... lol... nvm la... smoke less lor... lol.....
okok.. gotta do hse work liao.... people, take care ar.... enjoy ur hols and dun forget mi wor... esp my lion dance partner... lol....
clubbing
6:09 AMwent to watch big momma house two... nice show indeed... lol.. all thanks to yao yao... if not i dun think we will be able to watch the show lor... lol....
actualli mit up jus for job hunting.. but then, no result... play pool.... went to cafe cartel to eat but the food sux.. siAn sian sian... lol.....
went to clubbing... sux man.. first time nv dance... lol... and angel is very high... lol.. nearly lost her bag... sian sian sian... i m tired now but then i jus cant slp... lol... hmmm... sky, u better remember... ask mi jio u go clubbing and then u nv on ur stupid phone... lol..
wonder if a person tear wld dry up? lol... wanted to cry jus now but then no tears coming out.. so how do u feel when u see the one u realli love is alr attached? it sux totally..... haix...
i dunnoe wat i will do when i realli get despo... haix.... fuck mi man... shld i realli wait for it to come like wat u say?
Friday, March 03, 2006
cant get over
1:59 AMtrying hard to blog as my lappy de keypad is screwed... lol... so if u see a c or a v missing, it's normal... lol....
there are still stuff that i jus cant get over... how shld i phrase it... erm, let mi have a slp and dream of wat had happen, b4 i cont to blog abt it...
and staying home is not the best thing for mi to do.. it sucks... i will think and think and think and think whenever i m lonely...
okok, i shall cont tmr.. i m jus too lazy to blog with my lappy... bb
Thursday, March 02, 2006
exam over = hols
4:33 AMfinallly no more paper liao... shld be happy abt it... cos now is hols....
people are right... dun out too much hope in smthing cos u will end up with greater disappointment.... but i hope i wun be this time...
stats paper is a waste of time.. the teahcer are lame and the paper is like fucking long... mcqs are so tricky and structure qns are so long winded....
and becos we wanted a fag break after the paper.. but the cig drop in her class.. and the fucking tyh and smw are so idiotic, we could not take it back.. and he even threaten to reoprt to the discipline committee... but we did nothing worng... and so he fuckingly throw away the ciggies.... and all thanks to noi that we could retrieve it... lol... thaks alot man....
went to cine to sing... b4 that, went to a so call jap rest to have or early dinner... and the food sucks.. this teach us that we shld not judge the food by the menu.... lol.... went to kbox and sing... and we took k-dinner... consist of one food and one drink... and the food sux... maybe becos we are full? i dunnoe.....
i hate it when people go kbox and dun want to sing... machiam another yc.... mus force all that then can sing.. then sing also dun wan to sing nicely... lol.... did not sing all the songs i wanted due to time constraint. and vincent loss his cig in the room... went to find dexing and ask abt the ms pay and he asked us to call jason... another fuck up one... lol...
did not get to watch movie as planned... went to hg to plan pool again.... sian sian sian... next time if i want to play then i think i find those who dunnoe how to play de then play with them.. then i sure win one... lol...
u can call mi a lose or anything u want... i wun give a damm... jus dont like to lose in anyway... be it fair or unfair... but then most fucking part is u lose to someone when u of the same ____ as u....
went to 681 to eat prata.. curry was special but i did not fly at all... now i m at 502 again... is like everytime play pool then sure end up in this place.. i want to slp... i m tired... and when i get home, i nid to do hsehold chores again... sian sian sian... shldnt have tell my mother that i m not gg to sch....