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Friday, April 28, 2006
9:54 AM

spent the whole nite ytd to watch er mo zai shen bian. although i onli started watchin ytd, but then i alr finish 11 vcd... lol... 9 more to go... if onli i dun have to come for sch, then i think i can finish watching all... woohoo....

my mood was pretty alright b4 i come to sch. once rite after i smoke, everything change.... there was this girl who diao me becos i smoke... but wat the fuck is wrong with smoking? knnbccb...

and now i m still abit irritated... i dunnoe why... shit la......

gg clementi during break time... to make payment for the phone and bank in my cheque.... alone or with others? i dunnoe yet.... most prob is alone ba... sian sian sian...

i kip yawning... i m v bored....... sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian


Thursday, April 27, 2006
10:03 PM

i would rahther went for work ytd even though james was not there.... cant even slp.. all thanks to my dearest family memebers... sux sux sux.......

stomacah pain since ytd nite till today... i m in pain... lol... dunnoe wat the fuck i had eaten... no shit at al... fuck.......

how suay can i be... took a cig and wanted to smoke... and when i reach the stairs, my cig broke... i cant even smoke at all....

today is my mother birthday... happy birthday to her...

daily report:
26/4= 5 sticks
27/4=2 sticks.


Wednesday, April 26, 2006
4:40 AM

sian sian sian... i have nth better to do now... i jus cant go slp if not i will not be gg to sch again.....

jus came back from work.... there are too many 'thanks' and 'sorries' ard while working.... new game machine... and it's exactly the one u can find outside kbox.... the photo hunt sux.. but there is pyramid.. woohoo... can play until like song... miss ethan... lol... look time no see le...

know another customer today thru kc..... his name is wei neng but i remember it as wu neng.... i m evil... lol....

daily report: 4 cigs today...

sian.... poem attached below:

SLOW DANCE
Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?
You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,"Hi"
You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away.
Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over


Monday, April 24, 2006
12:17 PM

break time now... alone in the com lab waiting for time to pass..... sian ar... luckily onli one hr... if not, i sure rot to death!!!!

why did i bother so much in the past when it does not make any difference nw.... it still the same....

as usual, sch sux..... handouts and notes are all so messy..... printing shop is so crowded.... sch forever starts so early.....

one side of me regret doing that, but the other side of me is happy.... i also dunnoe wat i m thinking... it's contradicting..... watever the spelling is.....

i cant stand it anymore... it's wrong to be in the same class with your fren? i believe victoria wld prefer that class than this also... this is a win win situation... no one stand to lose..... pls stop it.....


Thursday, April 20, 2006
5:41 AM

work today is a blessing.... durain puff, durian cake and curry... and for supper is chilli crab and losts of other food....

everybody seems weird today... vincent tok alot of crap to me... regina is 'high'.... and i m super tired....

pea came and tips.. lol... LD... lol.... and supper is on her... lol... took a cab home.. from today onwards, can claim cabfare liao... lol

saw junior and james today... so good... lol... gotta slp... later got sch....

think my w810i is gone...


Tuesday, April 18, 2006
10:07 PM

my house is freaking me out.... i cant stand it anymore... so why is it that my bro can slp and i cant slp.... y must u wake me up and make iron the clothes? are the rest dead? fuck la....

thanks peepz for acc me to see willy wong who is also another fucker.... nb!!!! is it so hard to change my class? knnb.... now i have onli 3 more choice... first, find someone who is willing to change class with me. sec, sharon dad help mi and third, regina.... but i think it will be hard for anyone to work out..... sch simply sux....

tmr go sch for onli one hr... but bobian, also must go... wat can i do? shit la..... and i cant communicate with my class... jus dunnoe why..... sux sux sux...


Monday, April 17, 2006
sian
11:24 PM

went ice skating today.... jitao nv go sch... sch simply sux.... knnbccb...

appealling failed... need to ask regina to help mi liao... sian sian sian....

went to sk to slp ytd... went to hougang pak pool... i can be a fortune teller man....

anyway nth much to blog.. no pirvacy.... sian.... nites


Saturday, April 15, 2006
tired
6:58 AM

i m tired but yet i want to blog... let me emphasize... i m tired not drunk... although i drink alot today but i m nt drunk... 2 ld and one ten dollar tips... actually got another 50 dollar de but then i dun wan to take... lol....

wat happen today make me pissed off... i cried during work... onli elicia noes.. although regina found out but i denied... firstly, ethan went off half way... secondly, dennis is a fucked up guy.... no nid work de lor... go be a pr waiter man... lastly, i will not say it out... sucks la... knnbccb....

had a talk with louisa on my way home.. wat she say is quite true... hahah... i m slping now... lol.. nite...

anyway, angel, thanks for cumind down... and sorry... nv tok much to u when u rch there.... and somemore my face so black....


Friday, April 14, 2006
ytd suz
5:52 PM

ytd is jus the suckiest day... everything all happen at the same time.... dun wish to talk abt it....

anyway thanks denis and eugene....


Wednesday, April 12, 2006
supper
3:20 PM

work was shagged.... starting no people, but after 1, suddenly alot of people came in......

denis show me his gf photo and some porn... lol.... his gf damm chio lor... lol......

elicia is now our supervisor... lol.....

went to have supper at mr bean and mac... at first was elicia's treat she got 50 personal tips from shawn... lol.. but in the end is vincent and ethan who pay... lol

hope i can claim my cab fare... lol... i request the cab driver to give me a written receipt instead... haix.....


my chest is in pain nw.. whole body aching.... sux man... cant even slp properly...


Tuesday, April 11, 2006
sux
2:01 AM

today jus sux.... i dunnnoe... lol

tired tired tired...... jus dun like the training...

nth much to say... bb


Monday, April 10, 2006
hang over
4:48 PM

i have to thanks angel for wat u did ytd..... xie xie.... i now promote u liao.... u r not my goodie friend liao... you are me bestie budz liao... lol.... realli have to thank you... at least u nv leave me alone... xie xie ni wor.... =)


Saturday, April 08, 2006
deep tots
10:15 PM

knnbccb... fuck la... all u noe it's scold... nth but scold....

got two tight slap in a row.. from the same person.... different reason... one is becos i lied to her.... second is for...... and now i m back hm... if i m nt home, maybe i onli kanna one slap....

i m still thinking abt wat louisa say ytd...... wat she say is quite true but then i jus dun like one sentence she say... this is to her:
u can tok abt any one huai hua but pls dun get my fren involve.....

change ur image, get a bf and etc....... say until machiam like i cant be bothered abt my image and all that but u r wrong......!!!!!!!!!!!! da cuo te cuo......


6:20 AM

i found the western union thingy... it's not in a bank... it's at singapore post... hope that i still can make it by mon... it's not that i dun wanna make it by tmr.. i m simply too tired.... but it's okie if i cant make it.. saw a better deal. 250 and with 2 memory stick. brand new too...

work is ok for me. nearly break down. but anyway, it's all over.

went to have supper. majip treat... lol.. chilli crab again.... alicia's face is black. dunnoe why...

louisa send me home. she treat me too good liao. hope she can get it on monday. then i will hav free bungalow to stay... lol... and my a/c will have more money.... gonna help her buy toto later. system 7.

gt my pay. better than nth. dun tok abt it liao... haix.

i m sick of myself... can i jus fucking stop harming people? people quarrel also becos of me.... i think i need to get a life... shit la....


Friday, April 07, 2006
stfu
8:52 AM

oh pls, shut the fuck up... dun jus becos u bu shuang i wanted to borrow money from u then u scold me so much... so wat if i wanna sell my phone? i happy lei... which part of u not happi... knnbccb... dun lend dun lend la... it's not like i will die... fuck man...

i m proud of myself cos i nv smoke for the whole of ytd..... but when i touch my first cig today, i feel like vomitting... fuck la...

have been slping alot since wed...... more than 40 hours.. i think... i m wide awake now.. later nid to go sp submit appealing form and then find tyh.... haix... working tonite again... money money... i nid money.... hoope they will not cancel my package...

pissed off...


Thursday, April 06, 2006
appealing
2:22 PM

i m jus pissed off with myself. why cant i jus be a lil hardworking? jus go to sp and drop that form? why must i drag till today still haven submit?

dun nid to appeal liao... appeal for fuck? the chance of getting in is so small... there is onli on class in a module and 2 in b module.... tmr jus go drop the form and take it as a visit to sch cos i noe even i drop also no use de....

come to think of it, it's also a good thing... i dun have to take gems..... but thinking of the classmate that i will be having sux.....

study realli sux...... jus dun feel like studying... pms now... better dun come and irritate me.... i dun wan to study anymore!!!!!


Wednesday, April 05, 2006
check up
11:54 AM

tmr is my check up day. but i m not gg... i m not gg to wait like an idiot there and waste my time... i have better things to do.....

pissed off during work.... i hate people who purposely go drink so much then in the end come complain that drink alot... then still cont to drink... then the work jus throw away.....

ytd work nv kanna scolding.... good one... sian... miki told me abt his personal life... he had a problem yet he is so cheerful... lol.....

hope he will lend me the money like wat he had said... i m in need of money now... shit


Monday, April 03, 2006
eyes
11:54 AM

eyes are the most impt part of the body.... jus like another other stuff..... it's ironic.... i hate my sis that much yet i m crying for her now... maybe she is losing her eye soon... hope not....

learnt my lesson... thanks xm.... thanks for telling me wat to do and all ur advice.... guess i have to be trueful now to U.... u r much more understanding than i think... sorry for wat happen in the past....

and noi, thanks for cheering me up... lol... girlfren foreva... lol....

come to think of it..... i m quite thick skin... did something which i noe it's silly.... went to cut my palm.... it did not bleed.. jus pain onli.... also not very deep..... and my hand is not affected at....


Sunday, April 02, 2006
qing ming jie
8:39 AM

star glazing is good... love the feeling of being alone.... it's nice... but kanna dua..... but then slp no pirvacy at all... all people can....

burn my hair jus now.... stupid fucking lighter... and my eyelashes which is short enuff is even shorter now....

nearly faint jus now during morning pt... but then too bad, nv faint.... but it's so weird... people like us faint becos of low blood sugar but then i did not take my med for a few times liao still can faint... lol....

i m hungry!!!!!!

today is qing ming jie... and then i did something wrong again.. perharps i shld have go to work.. then nothing of this sort wld happen.... at first was weiting then now.... haix..... luckily my parents are not at home.. if not, i sure die.... i now also cant apologise to my ah ma cos she is dead...

i try not to be angry liao and i think i pass this time... i m nt angry with anyone... i jus dunnoe how to tell her abt this thing....


huiwen
4:34 AM

so who exactly is huiwen? she is somone who:

  • people that wont trust
  • people that wont confide in her as she is diao er lang dang
  • cannot slove people's problem
  • onli gossip with people
  • always have the wrong perception in sloving problem
  • is very kaypo
  • talks alot when she shld keep her mouth shut

there are more to the list... i will complete it in one month....

show u people a conversation:


me:
i wanted to help my fren
me:
yet i can do nothing abt it
me:
jus her ing away by herself at a corner
me:
this feeling sux
me:
she dun wan to tell me wat happen and i cant help her at all
me:
i felt v useless
a:
this is why u cant get into her world .
a:
the way of helping ur friend 1st thing is alr wrong.
a:
dun pursuade her out of her problem . there no use.
a:
UNDERSTAND is the main thing .
a:
try to see how she feel . wad will you do if its reallie is you.
a:
she onlie need advice. and not ur cheering ups and wadever stunts u gave. stunt can onlie last fer a min. and nt making her rem YOU.
a:
dun gif freaking JOKIN advice. tok to her in a nicely and show and tell her tt u understand how she feel .
me:
how to understand when she onli keep things to herself
a:
and nt telling and blaming urself tt u are nt a good frien.
a:
then how u wan others to trusst you when u always nt serious ?
a:
u ARE serious. but they cannot SEE the seriousness in YOU.
a:
thats makes why pple dun feel like confinding in you.
me:
then wat can i do
a:
i dun knoe.
a:
this tyme round just try to see hows is she.
a:
if she happened again .. try and LEARN to understand her ; sit down and tok to her nicely . and not by trying ways to cheer her up . when sumone is unhappie. no matter how hard u tried to cheer her up is no used. its like wasting tyme.
me:
i din tried to cheer up today
me:
jus that i ask her wat happen
me:
then she keep saying nth
a:
she`s a close frien to you rite?
me:
quite
a:
yah . so she know wad kind of friend are you alr rite ? she knoe u love to joke ard and stunts rite ?
me:
yup
me:
but there are times where we are serious tooo
me:
jus that nt so often
a:
hmmm* okies.. mayb her serious wif you is also joking ones. nt reallie tt serious ?
a:
u always got the wrong perception of people and always think tt IF you do dis she sure will be happie.
a:
but in facts its wrong de l0h .
a:
if she reallie understand you take u as a good buddie fer tokin out problems , then u wont be having problems like this.
a:
IM NT SAYING SHE NOT TAKING YOU AS GD BUDDIE. im just saying .. ur diao li lang dang de huiwen is onlie joking and nt sumone who can listen and solve problems .
a:
change the way of u when u can try and sit down and make pple know tt u also can listen and gif advice. and nt just to listen alr and knew tt she`s unhappie and make her happie ..
a
i know this is why pple always dun like to confide in u ..
a
but onli gossip wif u .

this is the prove to show that i m useless



die plsss
3:03 AM

i m fucking bored out of a sudden....

i have nth better to do... life is so bored....

and i m fucking useless... game also can lose.. and i cant manage my sim well... suck suck suck....

leave me alone for the time being... i need to go think abt it...


Saturday, April 01, 2006
disappointed
11:07 AM

ok, i shall not tok so much next.... jus have to kip my mouth shut and that's alll i have to do.....

work sux today... nnb!!! busy like hell and kanna scolded my customer... machiam my fault like that.... the system runs on it's own and nt me controlling it.... fuck la..... and my face is rotting... lol... miki kissed my face.... pui.....

so when i m in trouble who can i realli tok to? wanted to find someone to call during the smoking break but yet, i dunnoe who to turn to.... i m not trying to make myself sound pathetic... jus tat, i m disappointed in myself, my social life and all.....

made a fren today... kinda pity her but then i think is not a good thing to pity people... but i still want to say it... she is quite old and yet she cant even slp cos she has to let her grandchildren to slp.. wtf? cant they be fucking more considerate? shit la... and if my ah ma is alive, this will not happen.... but then, it's all too late....

and now, i can fuckingly forget abt all my those big big ambitious of becoming a boss or watever shit.... i m jus a useless bum... cant even be a good fren which is the basic, and still think of those impossible things... fuck la....


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