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bad things happen.
out of expectation..
maybe i m drunk
and she is drunk,
that explains the fight.
i cant do it...
i jus cant give her a punch.
say i useless,
say i hum,
but i dun care.
cos this is my principle.
i cried,
in the alley,
not wanting to let u knw.
i dun wan to be seen as a emo freak,
cos i m nt.
i want to give u wat u want,
but i jus dunnoe wat u want.
i regeretted ethg,
jus fucking pissed with myself,
for the state that we landed in now.
if sorry can cure everything,
i can give u a thousand,
with all my heart.
sorry *1000
Thursday, March 27, 2008
in less than a sec,
high to low..
that was how i felt,
after reading her blog.
se still loves him,
all she told me were jus lies..
maybe lynda is rite,
but i m stubborn,
i refused to believe.
if i had noe,
i wld work tomolo.
no more mtg.
i think she is avoiding,
pls give me a precise anwer.
dun left me hanging in the air.
this feeling sux.
shld i give up?
shld i not?
i still miss her alot,
but wat can i do?
i m reali stupid.......
fuck me
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
我爱着谁
爱到我有点醉
告诉我你是谁
能够把我让我变不对
你不会累
但我却爱你爱得好累
从没有为了谁
不顾安危付出一切
站在这平衡点
我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见
只能够靠感觉
他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说我
们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我
说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪
你度过
你听我说
你不要这么做
你不要看着我
说你已经知道怎么做
你很难受
我愿意陪你一起承受
只要你不怕痛
再多坎坷我都陪你走
站在这平衡点
我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见
只能够靠感觉
他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而
过好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔
陪你度过
他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说
我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔
陪你度过
就算未来有多少错至少
还有我的问候
我的温柔陪
你度过
something is not right..
i dunnoe wat is it but i just felt it.
m i too impaitent?
i jus want to noe wat u thinkg.
no more breakie with u for that day,
no pills from u,
for my stomach.
tmr is another disappointment.
partially its me,
i was the one who cancelled.
for any other person,
they wld have do the same.
i dun wan u to be tired,
i want u to rest more..
it really hurts to see u like this,
but can i do?
i m still a student,
without a stable income or job.
i really miss u alot.
Saturday, March 22, 2008
on this very day, i flunk my surprise.... i m too naive to think that ethg will go the way i want to... but who knows, she open the back door instead of walking to the back alley... i was stunt. i turn my bak facing her hoping that she wldnt recognise my back view.. but she did... its all gone... no more surprise.... i m a failure.... y is it that i always cant do mythings why... fuck me man...
Thursday, March 20, 2008
still,
there is no answer from u..
and i m not going to force...
stay the way as it is now
and i m contented..
but not to the extend of being happy.
wat can i do?
wat can i say?
hand is swollen,
i m nt surprise.
it's painful,
but not as pain as the heart...
i missing you badly
but are you aware about it?
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
i had a hard before going there....
i felt like an idiot looking for people to go down with me...
jus to see u.....
it was the first time that u sat at my table for more than 5 mins..
i was useless, i was drunk...
but thats the only to tell u how i m thinking....
i try to keep away from le,
scared that u might misunderstand,
worrying that u will feel guilty..
am i being paranoid
or did the hit the nail on the head?
i hope it wld be so.
but seeing wat happen,
my heat ache even more...
u chose the way u wanted
leaving me speechless...
did u do it on purpose
or is it u have no choice?
i have nth to say
as i dun wanna to force u...
u say u wld give an answer to me
and i hope that the answer is wat i want.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
i m pissed...
pissed with myself....
for being unable to be there for you....
blame it on my uselessness,
tat i m, fucking broke now....
leaving u alone when u r drunk....
its a sin, its sinful....
kill me....
Saturday, March 15, 2008
waited the whole day....
but there isnt any answer....
wat am i going to do?
i wanted the answer badly
but at the same time i was afraid...
afraid of rejection...
afraid that the answer is no....
but for now,
i m still hanging in the air....
at least there is not disappointment..
Thursday, March 13, 2008
PISSED..... I AM PISSED....
if u r worried or scared that i m angry, then dun do this to me... it's the second time u ps me... and i alr know that u wld nt come toyroom today...
shit shit shit.... jus feeling damm lousy now...
Sunday, March 09, 2008
i think i found someone which i fal in love with....... a very good one... her name is eunos... hehehe... thats all... ♥
rin called.. the way she tok to me is damm fucking attp... cb....