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hah,
i must be stupid...
to think i go tell her that,
and now,
this is how she treat me...
i think she purposely wrote that
to gek me...
urgh!!!!!!
I dunnoe...
maybe i think too much....
cos the fact is:
SHE NEVER LIKE ME AT ALL BEFORE.
but i realli dunnoe how to let go...
angel say i will be v stupid if i cont to hang on.........
i tried tok to her on msn today,
but she avoided me...
wat shld i do?
:(
are u sure u meant wat u say? am i defeated by u totally? do i have the chance to turn the table on?
ever since i ignore her msg that day,
i fall sick...
my fever jus come and go....
but still manage to acc ah b and gf till 12am on sat and sun..
i know i shld have stay at home instead,
but i know if i m at home alone,
i will start to think of her,
then i will break down again...
i realli miss her alot...
did i do the correct thing?
touch and love is indeed diff. so wat if u r being touched by me, u dun love me at all
Sunday, April 27, 2008
on 26 april,
i did sthg
which i will regret all my life...
i dunnoe urgh!!!!!!
i stll loves u....
i will wait for u..
and i will prove u wrong..
cos i m not any tom dick or harry...
it hurts and it realli hurts alot...
Friday, April 25, 2008
gonna try angel's method..
i will be the one suffering....
but i think it better to let go the bait then keep biting there and getting nowhere.
just wanna tell u sorry in advance.. realli very sorry about it.. i din mean it but i dun wanna be kept hanging on. :(
Thursday, April 24, 2008
went to plush ytd...
if u can see this,
jus wanna tell u i m sorry...
june june wasnt my gf...
we were so called acting..
i jus wanna see ur reaction..
jus wanna know how u feel....
u r still the onli one in my heart...
still din manage to take photo with u..
i think u r mad at me...
i m realli realli v sorry...
i teared for u again... am i realli nobody to u?
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
meet up with my consultant again...
she ask me to break the string,
i told her i m the fish.
i cant break it...
it shld be the one who is fishing to let go...
i wun give up, or athg,
unless i got a definite answer from her....
things are so fucked up in life...
life hasnt been smooth sailing for me...
i dunnoe wat i want in the future,
but now all i want it HER.....
i dunnoe wat u wanna actualli
u said that u have alot of things to tell me
and u will tell me soon,
but it seems like the soon will nv come.
the truth is out,
i dun wish to prompt anymore.
u r happy can le.
actualli staying like this is not a bad thing.
beocs....
hah.
i dunnoe hw to say.
u r sick,
hope u will be fine soon.
fuck up day for me..
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
today is a fuck up day.
kanna diao by an aunty
becos i went to the ladies.
wats wrong with her?
i have cb,
i have nei nei..
but since she mistook e fo a guy,
shldnt i be happy?
i m jus fucking pissed..
if i say i m ok now,
i mus be lying.
but i m happy for her
as she found her happiness.
i will jus mo mo de give her my support.
Monday, April 14, 2008
i m the stupid one.
i m the cum gong one.
the truth is finally out.
who can i blame?
onli myself. hah
went out with jinni, lp and val,
to 9 tang ling.
we had a great time. hah
nv regret..
haha.
i m willing to sacrifice for you. and only u. ETSH
Sunday, April 13, 2008
hah.....
she still loves her ex...
i m lost...
i dunno wat to do...
life sux..
becos of ethg.
fuck up man...
ugrh!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
finally get to see her..
after 7 days..
we stunt,
but failed....
anyway,
passed her the piglet and torch light...
she seems to dun like the torch,
i admit,
i failed..
in making the torch light..
haix
i realli miss her... alot alot...
Monday, April 07, 2008
1 msg....
for the whole of the day...
the distance,
its further and further..
i dunnoe...
but i m pissed...
nt becos of her...
but my phone...
my fone its like shit
i use it barely for a month,
and its like....
wtf....
i m missing u... but it seems like it u r treatig me colder and colder.
Sunday, April 06, 2008
sthg is not right,
thats what i feel...
but i dunno wat it is...
went st james ytd.
haven been clubbg for a long time.
quite enjoy.
it is when i forget all my troubles.
saw her fren,
tot that she might be there.
search ard the whole of fly,
jus to get a glimpse of her..
hah,
stupid me.
like what she call me...
saw jeff,
everyone link me with le...
but i dun wanna.
he is pissed with her..
for mia...
can u give me a chance?
Friday, April 04, 2008
i was afraid.
dunnoe how to contact...
but who knows,
u sent me a msg from ytd.
and then
it was where we started off...
hah.
its funny...
i dunnoe...
i miss u...
alot alot and alot..
i din see u for 4 days alr.
i realli wan to see u...
not ur photos,
but the real u...
3 msgs,
for today.
touched by her,
for morning call me...
din manage to wake up tho.
sorry,
my apologies..
u din slp the whole day..
if u nv call me,
maybe u can catch some slp.
was worried abt u,
cos din manage to contact u.
wanted to call ur hse,
but i dun dare to do so.
so i asked lynda for help.
ur bro said u were out.
was imagining things,
but heard from u soon after that.
i m then relieved.
spend the whole day,
doing ur stuff...
writing letter to u,
tell u wat is in my heart...
but i have no courage to show u...
try drawing a pic of urs,
but its unsuccessful...
hah,
i m lousy...
i have no courage,
no talent...
so for wat i m doing this?
waiting for my courage,
to come to me,
to tell u ethg in my heart.
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
april fool....
tricked her....
hah, thats funny....
plan A failed but quickly come up with plan B.
but its over exaggerating..
i nearly died.. haha...
called my mum and asked her to help.
hah,
kanna scolding again...
i m sorry that everything was too over...
as the plan was not successful..
sorry...
anyway,
happy april's fool. :)
i chose to ignore it. my life time, thats how long i will be waiting for u.. cos i srsly fell for you. SME